What a wonderful fall. The weather has been great and I've really had fun with family and friends. We had a great picnic this year. Everybody loved having it in October so that probably won't change. Most everybody was able to come but I really missed Mikey. Then this past week, Mike and I got some time with old friends some we hadn't seen for a long time. We played golf, a lot of golf and my body is trying to recuperate. It was so good to recapture the good times from the past. Everybody is doing well and it was just a relaxing few days. It seemed like everybody was at the place in their lives that we are just grateful that our kids are happy and healthy and we are able to enjoy our beautiful grandchildren. I think between the four couples we have 18 grandchildren and more on the way. Life is good.

What a good day Sunday was. Austin Michael Pressley was dedicated to the Lord. This was quite an experience for me - somewhat surreal considering all we have been through. He is a very sweet child and he has already brought great joy to our family. Mike is gone for most of the week and it is really getting cool. Another year almost gone. It has been good, we are very blessed. A lot of talk lately about our country's future. All I can say is I know who is in control. I'm looking forward to my picnic I have once a year. Mikey won't be here but it should be fun. Austin is spending the day with Daddy so Nana has a day off. Lot's of stuff to do better get busy.

Tomorrow my son and his wife will be dedicating their little boy to the Lord. This may not be all that remarkable but some of you know the journey our family has been on over the past few years. It truly is a miracle. Not just the dedication, but that my son is alive, is over 230 days sober and living such a radically different lifestyle - all miracles. It is definitely a "God" thing. Prayers are answered. I should never doubt that after watching Him work over the past several months. But as I write that I realize, He's been working a lot longer than that. He works when we don't see what He is doing. It is our job to trust until it becomes evident. Sometimes that takes a long time. I have been praying for the little ones He will give to us from Liberia and those prayers are truly blind prayers. I have no idea what their lives look like but I know one thing - God loves them and is taking very good care of them. Prayers will be answered!!

My husband and I were having a quiet late dinner on the deck last night. He looked at me and said, "you will never guess what I did today". Well, I usually hold my breath when he starts a conversation this way, I'm never quite sure what will follow. But he looked at me and proceeded to tell me about doing something that I know was very, very difficult for him. But he knew he needed to do it to make things right with him and someone else. I understand you really can't appreciate this because I'm not giving the details. But trust me, this was big. You see, I'm blessed to be married to a wonderful man that strives to follow God. I have watched him for thirty some years struggle and grow into this true man of God and I am very grateful to have him in my life.

Yesterday was a great day. First I put baby Austin to sleep. He is a little out of sync lately. I can't think of a better way to spend an hour. Kerri was going out with friends from church so I spent the evening with the other three grandsons. We ate berry granola dessert together and then I watched Riley and Trey sing to Highschool Musical. What a hoot!! Trey and I worked on a puzzle while Evan "cooked" pretend food for me. I can't think of a better way to spend an evening.

It's almost fall - hard to believe. I've been printing off pictures and reminiscing about all the memories those pictures hold. It seems like the older I get, the faster the chapters of my life go by. Mikey and Nicole are packing to move their little family to their own space. Kerri and Eric continue to prepare to add to their not so little family. My mom has found out that life goes on without her partner of so many years and she is doing o.k. with that. I miss my dad, I really miss him. Things change so quickly. I don't like losing touch with people that have been in my life. So...I joined Facebook. Never thought I would but I did. I'm trying to catch up with people that were once there and now aren't. It's a good thing for me.

It's been a while - very busy!! My husband and I decided to take a last minute trip to Puerto
Rico. He had to be there on business so I followed a couple days later and spent the Labor Day week-end. We had a great time. It was really good timing for me to get away. The little family that has been dwelling in my house will be moving to their own apartment in a couple weeks. They are really excited. Austin in growing like a weed. Looks like Mikey will be starting a new job soon. I am looking forward to Fall. Summer went very quickly as it always does but Fall is nice. We just had a garage sale to raise money for the adoption. It was tiring, fun and very profitable. So many people donated things it was overwhelming. Watching the kids with their cookies, brownies and lemonade behind a sign asking for donations to bring their sisters home from Africa was priceless. Life is good.

I really didn't want to give up a week to being sick but looks like that's what happened. I needed to be working on a baby shower, a garage sale and spending times with my little ones before they go back to school. Oh well, sometimes things are out of your control. This parasite I picked up just keeps hanging on. But never fear, next week this time I will be headed for Puerto Rico!! Yes, I'm spending Labor Day weekend with my husband in Puerto Rico. (perks of the new job) Right now I am hoping to be back to normal for Austin's baby shower on Sunday. Think I'll go lay down.

I can't believe it but this wonderful little boy turned 7 this week. I remember when he came home from the hospital and he has been very special from that first day. I remember holding him one day shortly after he was born and saying to someone visiting that he had such a sweet spirit about him. I was right. I know I am his Nana, but he has a very special heart. I hope you had a great birthday Riley. You look great on that bicycle. We love you very much!!

Life is good. It is different as we have a little one inhabiting our space but it is good. He is such a good baby and mommy and daddy are doing a great job in their new roles. He is growing very quickly as most babies do. I got my mom almost completely moved to her new digs down the hall from her original apartment. Summer is slipping by. Mike has almost made the transition into his new management job and maybe, just maybe fall will bring some calm around here. I feel as if we have survived all the changes in good fashion. My mom still has her sad days but all in all she is doing great. It has been much easier for me to get my hands around the reality that my dad is gone, now that I am home from vacation. I now have four beautiful grandsons - I think you will have to admit they are BEAUTIFUL!!!

Another beautiful baby boy for Nana and Papa Pressley. Austin Michael Pressley was born on July 6th. He weighed 7lbs. 2ozs. Mommy and baby are both doing great. He eats, sleeps and poops just like he should. He is absolutely adorable and we are so blessed to have him. He looks a lot like his mommy and seems to have his daddy's easy-going personality. He is very loved and already has brought a lot of joy to our lives. Welcome little baby boy!!

Well, vacation is almost over. It's been wonderful. The weather couldn't have been better. We all have stayed safe this time and I think everybody is refreshed and ready to go home. I love vacation but I love home. We have a lot to look forward to and I'm ready to enjoy the rest of the summer and meet my new grandson. I was a little melancholy this trip. I thought a lot about my dad and I am still trying to get my brain around the fact that he isn't with us. I think it might be easier once I get back home and live in the reality of it. I also really missed Mikey. I am so proud of him and the way he is finally growing up and facing his realities. He is so much fun to have around and we all really missed him. Mike will be home Saturday and we will follow on Sunday. Mike is looking forward to his new job and hopefully our lives will settle down a little.

This wonderful man - my Father, went to be with Jesus yesterday at 1:20. I had the privilege of being by his side as he took his last breath. In life and in death, he was everything a man of God should be. I am so grateful to God for the wonderful gift He gave me in my Father. This world was truly blessed and heaven is even more beautiful because of him. See you later Dad, I love you.

This beautiful little boy just turned "2". Sorry it has taken so long for me to post this. He is such a special little man. He has his own language and it isn't always easy to translate. But I always understand when I ask him whose boy he is and he says "Nana". His hugs are unbelievable and he knows his own mind and isn't afraid to tell you in his own way. He love his big brothers and is beginning to realize that he is very funny. He cracks himself up. Nana loves you Evan. I can't wait to see you on the beach again.

A nice relaxing Saturday. I've slowed down and in doing so I have been reminded in so many ways just how long I have lived. Mike and I went down to Creekside in Gahanna today and had lunch. It was really nice. I've been around long enough to remember when "old Gahanna" really looked "old". Lots of changes. I'm going to some graduation parties today - I remember when these kids were born. My daughter even babysat for one of them!! Then I came home and sat on my back porch. From there you can see a beautiful tree. It's tall and full and shady. It's a special tree to me. My dad and his best friend, Ralph went out in the woods and brought that tree back to transplant in my yard. It has grown tall and come out full year after year. It's been there for a long time. Back when my dad was strong and vibrant. He landscaped my entire yard for me. That tree was planted back when Ralph could fix my car blindfolded and go home and bake pies for whoever needed a thoughtful gift. That was before my dad lost track of time and before Ralph had a heart attack as he was leaving to deliver one of those pies to the pastor. I often wish I could go back and re-live a day here and there. I think that is a sign that I have had a beautiful life so far with many wonderful memories.

Well another Monday and the time has finally arrived. My son will be leaving tomorrow for 28 days of incarceration. I haven't said much about it but here it is and we can't escape the reality of it. I'm feeling like everything is a dream lately. Not only are we facing Mike's situation but my husband's mother will probably have a foot amputated this week, one of his sisters has ovarian cancer and the other mentally challenged sister just had a premature baby. Am I living a soap opera?! I don't know that I will ever fully understand all the mysteries of prayers but I am experiencing the unbelievable way it can sustain you through tough times. I can't say I always feel strong but I'm surviving each day and I haven't shut down and for me that is big. I get phone calls and e-mails telling me they are praying for our family and all I can say is I feel them. I feel those prayers and I am so grateful. I really need t0 find the energy to visit my Dad. It has been far too long. Maybe once I get past tomorrow I can try to get that done. I'm not going to make the trip to Indiana tomorrow with my husband. Fortunately we have a wonderful caring Pastor and assistant Pastor that want to make that journey with him and I think it will be best that way. I'm going to spend the day with my daughter and grandkids.

Welcome to the world Zoe Ryan Line!! Your arrival has been very anxiously awaited and it looks like you sure were worth the wait!! You have an awesome Mommy and Daddy. Aunt Debby can't wait to get her hands on you. I hope your Ohio State cheerleading outfit fits you by football season. Hugs and kisses from Ohio.

Thanks to my family for such a beautiful Mother's Day. Each one of them is so special. I missed seeing Eric however. (Shhh don't tell him!!) I am very tired tonight and I'm wondering how I am going to have the energy to face what I must face in a little over a week. I am really going to miss my son, having him around 24-7 lately will make it hard when he is gone. Sometimes 30 days fly by, I'm not sure these will.

We had a celebration last night. We celebrated 90 days of sobriety for my son. As I look back over the last three months and re-live that first night it really feels like a dream. It feels like an amusement park ride that at times I've wanted to get off but it doesn't stop. Then other times it feels really good and I enjoy it. But always I feel totally out of control, I'm not in charge of the ride at all. The real miracle is that we genuinely have something to celebrate. When the phone rang in the middle of the night, I really didn't think we would get to this point. There is only one way this has happened. It is honestly and truly a God thing. Good out of bad, that's what He specializes in and I have seen it first-hand. The ride continues. Mike will be gone for 30 days soon. I pray that Nicole feels His presence more than she knows is possible. Then we face the next mountain and see how God helps us over that one. We will continue to get ready to meet baby Austin and trust that God has control of the ride.

Today I have a prayer for my family - all of my family.

My husband beginning another work week and juggling it with all the other responsibilities of life
My mom, watching her world change and trying to understand it all
My dad, not understanding anything
My daughter and son-in-law waiting to welcome new ones
My three grandsons growing up far too quickly
Our granddaughters in Liberia hoping to be loved by a mommy and daddy
My son trying not to look too far ahead into his unknown future
My new daughter-in-law carrying another beautiful miracle and hoping all is well when he arrives
My sister and brother-in-law moving once again
My nephew and new wife blending a family
Ryan and Ginger anxiously awaiting Zoe Ryan their healthy little miracle

May they all feel God's amazing and unconditional love sometime today in an overwhelming way!
As this day comes to a close may they know that no matter what, God loves them more than they can imagine, more than they can fathom.

I was really distracted this morning from the odds and ends I needed to do before leaving for an appointment. I recognized the feeling of needing to settle myself and hear what God had for me today. So....... being distracted I picked up my favorite book - "Disciplines for the Inner Life" and turned to the "distractions" chapter. I looked at Tuesday's scripture (today being Tuesday!) and it took me to 2Timothy 1:1-14. " for I know whom I have believed, and am convinced that He is able to guard what I have entrusted to Him for that day." Then I saw a devotional entitled "Be Strong in God's Grace". Sounded good to me. It was about the Nazarene man that had been taken hostage in Iran in the 80's. I remembered this and had read it before but figured it couldn't hurt to read again. It's always good to be reminded of God's grace. It seems that this man was given a Bible and he turned to Isaiah 43:5 - "Do not be afraid, for I am with you; I will bring your children from the east and gather you from the west." He said those words felt as if God was making a promise to bring him home safely. I turned to Isaiah 43:5 and there next to this verse I had written "Mikey '98". I had claimed that promise for my son 10 years ago. God has been with my son all those years. He never leaves us sometimes we just are so distracted we don't realize He is there. Today I am claiming that same promise for the little girls we are trying to bring home from Liberia. Isaiah 43:1 says,"fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine." He knows them, He knows their names and soon we will.

Well, we made it through another market! I think my re-entry is almost complete. I'm beginning to feel like myself again. Kerri and the boys will visit tonight. Steak and chicken on the grill. (Trey doesn't like "snake") I am slowly getting things moved into my downstairs work room. We are beginning to make room for Austin. Time is really going quickly. I figure I need to have the nursery finished by the time we leave for the beach. That is slightly over two months. I better get busy. We want to bring him home to a buckeye nursery. You can't start too young you know!! I keep hoping to hear some good news from Liberia. Hopefully this delay won't last too long. A lot of things are still in limbo but the answers will come when it is time. God holds that in His hands.
My dad seems to be sleeping a lot more than before. All he talks about is seeing his mom and dad. He thinks they are coming to visit him everyday. I never knew his mom and his dad died when I was in elementary school. It is sad but everyday he is closer to heaven. That too is in God's hands. God is graciously giving Mom what she needs each day. God is good.

I don't think I have ever posted from market. I am never totally thrilled about coming, but this time was very hard. My kids are going through so much back home but I had to come to the hard realization that I can't do anything about their situations. That is hard for me to swallow, but nevertheless, true. I've already had to talk Mike off the ledge and I will probably have to do it again. So, I am here and I pray for peace, guidance and joy for all of us as we go through this difficult part of our journey. My Dad seems to be fixated on his Mom and Dad. I think his heart is already in heaven. I pray that we will all be able to let go when the time comes.

Have you ever felt like "what could happen next?". We got Pup married, we're waiting to see what his future holds and now the adoption process has become a new nightmare. Adoptions in Liberia are on hold for how long, we don't know. Do they keep going forward or look in another direction? We are all feeling quite drained. The stress level can't go much higher. But underneath it all is the feeling that God is still in control and He has all the answers. If we could look forward, I'm not sure how all of our lives would look but one thing I do know - It will be o.k. Whatever my kids will face, they will go through it by the grace of God. And on the other side we will look back in amazement at how the waters parted. So for now, I will continue praying for His mercy in our lives and His protection for my son and his new wife, our unborn grandson, the beautiful little boys we have already been blessed with and the little ones, whoever they may be that God will deliver to Kerri and Eric in His own, perfect timing.

My baby boy is married!! I'm not sure I have processed that yet. But it was a beautiful ceremony and a beautiful day. So much of their future is unknown, but then again, that is true for all of us.
I realized that day that I have some wonderful friends. Their support was overwhelming and their love was real and genuine. I thank God for the people He has placed in our life to travel this journey with us.

I don't often post twice so quickly, but this is just too good to ignore. My wonderful son-in-law gave me a book by Henri Nouwen and I opened it to today's reading. WOW!! Why can other people put my feelings into words so much better than I? This says exactly what I am feeling. I'm sure you have been there.

"[There is] a time for mourning, a time for dancing" (Ecclesiastes 3:4). But mourning and dancing are never fully separated. Their times do not necessarily follow each other. In fact, their times may become one time. Mourning may turn into dancing and dancing into mourning without showing a clear point where one ends and the other starts.
****don't miss this part!! Often our grief allows us to choreograph our dance while our dance creates the space for our grief. We lose a beloved friend, and in the midst of our tears we discover an unknown joy. We celebrate a success, and in the midst of the party we feel deep sadness. Mourning and dancing, grief and laughter, sadness and gladness - they belong together as the sad-faced clown and the happy-faced clown, who make us both cry and laugh. Let's trust that the beauty of our lives becomes visible where mourning and dancing touch each other.

Our prayers are being answered in the midst of really hard circumstances. I'm finding that mourning and dancing take a lot of energy that only God can provide.

My son is getting married tomorrow. I am very happy. He is making good decisions and allowing God to be in those choices. I have real hope for his future. But sometimes with the storm howling, it is hard to sense that hope. I told Nicole last night that we just have to lock arms, put our heads down and plow through to the other side of the storm, because there is a beautiful life waiting there. We only have God to thank for that!

Easter - 2008 It couldn't have been better!! It was a beautiful, beautiful day from beginning to end. I was feeling a little heavy about everything but I was able to renew my hope today. He is risen, He is risen indeed!! Now we will prepare to celebrate Mike and Nicole and get ready for a beautiful wedding.

My friend Ruth found these little bears and they just seemed perfect for our little girls that will be coming to us soon. I keep them in my bedroom until the day comes I can hand them to them. They are a reminder to me to keep our little girls surrounded by prayer. We don't know what they look like or their names but we already love them. I know God is watching over them. We can't wait for the day when they arrive but until then, they will sit in my room (as long as Evan isn't around - one went missing for a few days!!) and I will pray. God bless you, little ones. He loves you and so do we.

Well, another week. I really have decided to let God handle all the stuff going on right now. However, I really wanted part of the deal to be that I could sleep through until He worked all this out. It would be nice to just wake up on the other side of it. But... that doesn't seem to be possible soooooooo another week!! We had a beautiful service Sunday at church. My sister says she gets through times like this by looking back, back at God's faithfulness. I was reminded of this song yesterday.

"He's been faithful, faithful to me
Looking back his love and mercy I see
Though in my heart I have questioned and failed to believe
Still He's been faithful, faithful to me."

It's good to know that we don't always have to be on our "A" game with God. He understands that when we are going through the battle it is sometimes hard to stay strong. His faithfulness isn't determined by the strength of our faith. He's a good God and good things are happening.

My little ones will come see me tonight. Their smiles and hugs and kisses keep me going. I taped the basketball game for Riley but I really don't want to be reminded of that disappointment. Looks like I will have to find another team to cheer for in the tournament. Eric's job is going well. What an answer to prayer!! The adoption seems to be moving along and Nicole is healthy and feeling good. Dad is fairly content and Mom is keeping her head up and actually going to exercise classes. My mom doing yoga - wish I had seen that!!

"The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and His understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."

Well, I'm still alive. That which does not kill me makes me stronger!! I feel like I am on autopilot. This particular valley could take a long time to get out of. I really feel like I am walking blindfolded. The assurance of things hoped for the evidence of things not seen - FAITH. That is where I am living at the moment. I have no earthly idea of what is ahead - but He does. I can't plan, I can't count the days, I can't even peek around the corner and see the end.

My words for this day:

I was sure by now that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away, stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say "Amen" and it's still raining
And as the thunder rolls, I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls, I raise my hands and praise the God who gives and takes away.

I'll praise You in this storm and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are, no matter where I am.
And every tear I've cried You hold in Your hand -
You never left my side and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm.

I lift my eyes unto the hills.
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord - The Maker of Heaven and Earth.

Have a blessed day.

Well, it was a week ago tonight that my world fell apart again. But as I sit here having survived, my son has finally stopped living in denial and is seeking help for his problem. This is a true answer to prayer. I don't have a clue what he is going to have to face because of his choices he made this past week but I do know that God is working and it is finally being seen in his life.
We also found out today that our new little one is a boy. Yes, another boy will be born in July and I'm sure he will be another beautiful gift from God. I don't pretend to understand what it is but I am resting in the knowledge that God has a plan and we will see it unfold. I am so glad that this plan doesn't depend on me. All that is required of me is to pray and trust. Trust when we can't see where He is leading. I'm sure that when we are on the other side of all this, there will be NO doubt that God was the one that got us there. So I am praising Him in advance.

I call, You hear me
I've lost it all
And it's more than I can bear
I feel so empty.

You're strong
I'm weary
I'm holdin' on
But I feel like givin' in
But still You're with me.

And even though I'm walkin' through
the valley of the shadow,
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
and I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me.

I know I'm broken
but You alone can mend this heart of mine
You're always with me

And even though I feel so lonely
like I've never been before
You never said it would be easy
but You said you'd see me through the storm

It happens every year, about the same time. I turn into a crank. I start complaining about the crappy weather, the flu bugs no one can seem to shake and the fact that we never see the sun. And then I realize; those aren't things worth complaining about. If that's the best I can do then I need to shut-up!! So..... today I ask for forgiveness and then I ask that I see the beautiful miracles that are around me everyday. I found this verse in one of my favorite books of the Bible. I'll share it -

"The Lord is the everlasting God,
the Creator of the ends of the earth.
He will not grow tired or weary,
and His understanding no one can fathom.
He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak.
Even youths grow tired and weary,
and young men stumble and fall;
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength,
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint."
Is. 40:28-31

We All Need

From a cardboard hovel in a darkened street
To the well-lit windows of a penthouse suite,
All are desperate souls with a human fate,
And we protect ourselves within the walls we make.
And I stand in a corner, now, in my house of rest
And bow my head, beat my breast and say,
"God, please forgive me for this sinner's heart!
Though You show me your mercy,
It's the same old story keeping us apart."
And we all feel lost sometimes,
And we all feel hurt inside,
And we all cry, and we all need
The redeeming love of Jesus.
And I was raised with the lessons and the victory speech,
And I fought for the standards that I could not reach,
And I hold my tongue when the pain is great,
And I cover my tears as we celebrate,
while a private war rages with the fear and the doubt,
As I try to run faster to find a way out
I'm convinced if I stumble they'll just cast me aside,
And mock at my weakness and shatter my pride.
'Cause I've watched as we've stoned the more hesitant soul.
So, we all must remember,
It's still God's grace we all need to know.
We all feel lost sometimes,
We all feel hurt,
and we all cry,
And we all need

It's been a while since my last post. I'm not sure why. It's just been rather quiet. But at the same time there is a lot going on. I'm just thinking, thinking about the future and how exciting yet uncertain it is. There will be a lot of changes in our family in 2008. I think of the things I am aware of now and suddenly I realize that there are many things that will happen that I'm not at all aware of today. It's just really good to know that God holds all the circumstances in His hands. I'm usually not at all content to stay home but lately that isn't true. I guess the cold and all the things running through my mind has made it easier. I've been praying a lot lately. Praying for the children that will be entering our family, the little one that will soon be born to my nephew and his wife, the little ones in Liberia who will be joining us very soon and the little one that will make my son a daddy this summer. WOW!! I pray for them all, these beautiful, lovely children given to us by God, entrusted to our care. I think of Riley and Trey going off to school and I see how quickly Evan is growing to be his own little person and I hope they grow up realizing that Nana's prayers will always be there for them. God help us to be the parents, grand-parents, aunts and uncles we need to be.

Well the Buckeyes lost and the sun came up. I wasn't a very faithful fan. I just couldn't bear to watch them get their butts beat. So now we can concentrate on basketball. I'm a little frustrated about far more important things. My dad continues to linger and it is getting more stressful by the day for my mom. There's just nothing there really but his body. I know he will be far happier once he gets to where he's going. But God reminded me a couple weeks ago that I'm not in control and I don't see things through His eyes. We just may have to make some decisions if it continues much longer and those won't be fun. He is getting very good care but it is very costly. I'm really trying to keep it in Gods hands.

My sister sent me this prayer at the beginning of a new year and I would like to post it here as a prayer for anyone that might be reading this. I need this as I enter 2008.

"I stand between the years. The Light of My Presence is flung across the year to come - the radiance of the Sun of Righteousness.
Backward, over the past year is My Shadow thrown,
hiding trouble and sorrow and disappointment.
Dwell not on the past - only on the present...
bury every fear of the future...of suffering, of loss.
Bury all thought of unkindness and bitterness, all your dislikes,
your resentments your sense of failure,
your disappointments in others and in yourself...
leave them all and go forward to a new and risen life.
Remember you must not see as the world sees. I hold the year in My Hands -
in trust for you.
But I will guide you one day at a time. Leave the rest with Me.
You must not anticipate the gift by fears or thoughts of the days ahead.
And for each day I shall supply the wisdom
and the strength."

Have a blessed New Year.

Well, another beautiful Christmas. It had it's rough moments without my Dad but we had a good time together and he was doing well when we went to see him.
2008 - it hasn't even arrived yet and it promises to be quite eventful. I just needed to post one of my favorite quotes; one that has seen me through a lot of twists and turns in my life. And with it I pray for a very blessed New Year for you all.

"The next hour, the next moment, is as much beyond our grasp and as much in God's care, as that a hundred years away. Care for the next minute is just as foolish as care for the morrow, or for a day in the next thousand years - in neither can we do anything, in both God is doing everything."

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

My pastor spoke a couple weeks ago about waiting on God. It seems as if there are a lot of areas of my life in which I am waiting to see God's hand. I was slightly frustrated the other day and I was telling Him that it would really be o.k. to take my Dad home to heaven. After all that's where he wants to be, what was He waiting on?! My mom went to visit him yesterday and his roommate started talking to her about my dad. He said, "your husband is the kindest, gentlest man of faith I have ever met. I sure wish I could be more like him." God doesn't always show us why His timing is what it is but in this case He was willing to give me a glimpse of how He was still using my dad and He just isn't finished with him here on earth. Sometimes through our earthly eyes it just doesn't make sense. But God's timing is always perfect. He is never late.

"Oh come let us adore Him". We sing this one all season. Once again, I borrow from others as I am not one that is able to compose beautiful, wise words but I do appreciate them.

"...the highest adoration is not occupied with the recollection of favors received and mercies extended, though they do help one be aware of the true nature of God. There is still, in all such recollection, a remnant of that self-centeredness which it should be the purpose of prayer to escape. In it, we are still thinking of God in terms of something done to me and for me. We never really adore Him, until we arrive at the moment when we worship Him for what He is in Himself, apart from any consideration of the impact of His Divine Selfhood upon our desires and our welfare. Then we love Him for Himself alone. Then we adore Him, regardless of whether any personal benefit is in anticipation or not. Then it is not what He has done for us or what we expect Him to do for us, but what He has been from eternity before we existed, and what He is not even if we were not here to need Him, and what He will be forever whether that "forever" includes us or not - it is that which captivates us and evokes from us the selfless offering of self in worship. That is pure adoration. Nothing less is worthy of the name." Albert Day

Father; may my life make your great heart glad today. Let me live in adoration, praise and gratitude for who you are and all you have come to mean to me. Amen

Another beautiful week-end. Happy birthday to my favorite 4 yr. old, Trey Ryan Stetler. I love this bundle of joy. He is such a handsome little guy and it is so obvious to me that he will have something very special to contribute to our world. We celebrated his birthday Transformer style. His smile is contagious and his personality is electric. He walks into a room and it lights up. Here is a picture of our Trey for you to enjoy. Happy Birthday big guy!!

It's been a while since I've posted but as you can guess I've been going a mile a minute. Some people would say I get obsessed with Christmas but, oh well... Last weekend I had the weekend from heaven. I spent two days with my husband and my two kids in Nashville Indiana. My favorite people and my favorite place. It was like deja vu. We have spent a lot of time in this special place, just the four of us and I never thought it would happen again. I get very melancholy this time of year, thinking about good times that have come and gone. Last weekend we went back and relived some of those memories. For me it was wonderful. I think we all had a great time. I love my family and nobody has a better husband or kids than I. I wish you all special times this holiday season and think about re-living some. You really can go back.

I thought I would share some special moments from our wonderful Thanksgiving weekend. Fun times, good memories and a family finally coming together again.

I just thought I would share some pictures from our wonderful Thanksgiving weekend. Fun times, good memories and a family finally coming together again.

What a beautiful Thanksgiving. The only thing that would have made it better would have been if my Dad had been able to be with us. Nevertheless, I thank God for all his blessings. Now it's time to get ready for Christmas. The tree must go up soon!!

Thanksgiving week. So much to be thankful for. So much to look forward to. The Oklahoma contingency is coming to town minus one major player. Unfortunately Ginger won't be with us. But she will be home taking care of a precious little bundle that we can't wait to welcome to the family. We will miss her. We also won't have my wonderful father around the table with us. He's just not able, it would be far too much for him. This will be the first holiday without him. He loved the holidays. Not a whole lot more to say about that. It kinda leaves me empty just thinking about him not being with us. I find myself wondering what next Thanksgiving will look like. Who will we have said good-bye to, who will we have said hello to. One, maybe two beautiful little girls from Liberia. Yes, as always a year will bring big changes, some I'm sure we don't even expect. So, for now I will enjoy today, this holiday season. May it be blessed.

I waited for you today
But You didn't show
I needed You today
So where did you go?
You told me to call
You said You'd be there
and though I haven't seen You
Are You still there?

I cried out with no reply and
I can't feel You by my side
so I'll hold tight to what I know
You're here and I'm never alone

And though I cannot see You
And I can't explain why
Such a deep reassurance
You've placed in my life
We cannot separate
'Cause You're part of me
And though You're invisible
I'll trust the unseen

You're here and I'm never alone

I have the most beautiful, precious family in the whole wide world!! My father is getting ready to move on to be with Jesus and my daughter and son-in-law are going to be bringing more joy into our family simply by obeying a call God has given them. It seems like we are going through so many emotions right now and I just keep trying to keep everything in God's hands. Help me Lord, to trust in your plan unconditionally. Thank you for using my wonderful grandsons to speak to me in such a beautiful way. I think the following words might be my Dad's testimony:

When I started my journey in fresh childlike trust
I believed that the Lord's way was best
I would read in His Word how He mothered the bird
And grieved when it fell from its nest
How I felt His delight when I chose to do right
And I prayed I would not make Him sad
We would meet on the way in the cool of the day
What a pure sweet communion we had.

The road I have traveled has sometimes been steep
Through wild jagged places of life
Sometimes I've stumbled and fallen so hard
That the stones cut my soul like a knife
But the staff of my Shepherd would reach out for me
And lift me to cool pastures green
With oil of the spirit anointing my wounds
There I'd rest by the clear healing stream

Oh but now more than ever I cherish the cross
More than ever I sit at His feet
All the miles of my journey have proved my Lord true
And He is so precious to me

And because of my Dad's life, these words are my testimony

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ, I stand

No guilt of life, no fear of death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ, I'll stand

My Dad seems to be getting ready, ready for the best trip of his life. Before he broke his hip, he was so unhappy and lonely and discontent. Now, he seems to be in a holding pattern, just waiting for the next step. I am so grateful that my mom can visit him now and go away smiling. On Sunday they had church together in his room. They sang an old hymn together and she looked over and Dad had raised his hand in testimony of his trust in God. A trust that bears witness to the fact that all this will be worth it when he sees Jesus. A trust that never once wavered as he lived his life in front of his two girls. A trust that both of us now hold onto because we saw it modeled and proven to be true. I pray I pass that on to my family because when all is said and done, nothing else really matters. We grow old, give up our jobs, sell our homes and possessions and prepare for God to take us home. I love my Dad.

Lily of the Valley, let your sweet aroma fill my life
Rose of Sharon show me how to grow in beauty in God's sight
Fairest of ten thousand, make me a reflection of your light
Daystar shine down on me let your love shine through me in the night

Lead me Lord, I'll follow. Anywhere you open up the door
Let your word speak to me, show me what I've never seen before
Lord I want to be your witness, you can take what's wrong and make it right
Daystar shine down on me, let your love shine through me in the night

I had a wonderful week-end. Back to my roots; to the wonderful people and places that were such an intricate part of my childhood. I walked into that wonderful old farm house and went directly to the spot where I sat on my Papa's lap in his recliner. I closed my eyes and I could still sense him. That wonderful man, the wisest man I know with a 6th grade education. There is life there. Some of the houses I passed were empty and abandoned but now this one. For that I am grateful. People were there living and making memories just like our family did. I truly thank God for my roots. I have a wonderful heritage.

How wonderful life is 'cause you're in the world!!

Home from market and I feel like I have re-entered my life. I got back to church, back to the gym but most importantly back to these guys. Looking forward to the cool-down that is coming this week so it will really feel like fall. Pumpkin patch, sleep-overs, a family reunion and Bob Dylan in concert. I like my life!! Jen Leonard has been living with us temporarily and I am so glad she has. She is a wonderful addition to our family. Thanks to her for putting up with my husband in the office and for loving my grandkids in such a beautiful way. They are truly richer for having her in their lives. We're really glad she's here. You might as well put that house up for sale, I don't think Mr. Pressley is going to let you move!!

Got my dad through the operation and in to re-hab. Thank goodness my sister was here, she was such a help. It was really fun to see Ryan. Dad's spirits are really good. That makes him much easier to deal with. Soooo.... we are off to market. AGAIN!! Leaving the house and the pets in Jen's hands. (and the office!!) I'll check in when we return. I'll miss my little ones!!

WOW!! What a great trip. I think Kerri and I fell in love with New York City. I'm sure there were some out there that didn't think two women could find there way around but not a problem. We maneuvered the subways and crammed as much as we could into the short time we had. Our hotel was wonderful with a great restaurant. We enjoyed room service the first night. We saw the Statue of Liberty and Battery Park, ground zero, Macy's and Herald Square and of course Central Park which was a wonderful surprise. I really didn't know what to expect and it was beautiful. We hit the town on Saturday night an had an amazing dinner at an upscale steakhouse in Rockefeller Plaza. I highly recommend it. Then it was time for the show and it was fantastic. All in all a perfect trip. Unfortunately while I was gone, my Dad fell and broke his hip. He had a replacement yesterday and now we begin a whole new chapter. He made it through the operation, we'll just take a day at a time.

Well, we're off to New York City in the morning, just my daughter and me. We may come back and then again we may have so much fun that we'll stay!! I'm sure New York will never quite be the same. Should be a memory making trip. See you all when we get back.

We just celebrated our beautiful daughter's 30th birthday. " Beautiful" describes her inside and out. She is someone that loves her family and her God. Her smile really does light up a room.
Sorry, I'm sounding a bit like a hallmark card, but I really am proud to say that she is my daughter. I was blessed when she entered my life and I cherish every moment I have with her. Kerri, thank you for all the joy you have given me. I love you with all my heart, you are truly beautiful!!

i just returned from a very dear friends funeral. Her footsteps go back a long way in my life. I have never been so inspired to keep the faith and do all God asks of me while on this earth as I was when I left this service. She was a true friend and I am glad I knew her but the service that ushered her out of this life changed me and hopefully the way I spend the time I have left on this earth. Thank you Wanda.

My handsome grandson started kindergarten today. I can't believe that much time has passed. It seems like only yesterday that we were walking endless miles in the heat, trying to start Kerri's labor, wondering if the time would ever come that we would meet this remarkable human being. Now I am praying for this little man that God will protect him and walk with him as he begins a new part of his life. Riley, I love you more than words could ever say. You are truly a special person. I know this will be a fun adventure for you and soon you will be reading to Nana.

I can count a million times
People asking me how
I can praise You with all that I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly change who I forever am in You
Maybe since my life has changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind to turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times.
So I pray -
Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings You glory
And I know there'll be days
When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to praise You
Jesus, bring the rain.
I am Yours regardless of the dark clouds that may loom above
Because You are much greater than my pain
You who made a way for me
By suffering Your destiny
So tell me what's a little rain
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy,holy
Is the Lord God Almighty

Here are some pictures of vacation. These are the very special people that make me smile every time I think of them. What a great two weeks we had. Thanks guys, for being you and bringing me so much joy.

Well, we are home from vacation. It was another interesting two weeks. We are very grateful that we saw God's hand of protection as Mike went to war with a wave and the wave won. Two hospitals, multiple tests, pain medicine and a neck brace later we are very hopeful that he is going to be fine in time. He goes to our family doctor today and I am anxious to see the new x-rays. Hopeful the healing is progressing and he can get back to normal soon. We really did have a great time otherwise. The weather was beautiful and we were all able to relax. Eric even came down for a few days. It's good to be home and like always, I am looking forward to settling in for the fall season. Kerri and I will be leaving or a long week-end soon to New York. The boys are getting ready for school and my mom is trying to adjust to not living with my Dad. She is dealing with all the loneliness and feelings of guilt but I am hoping she will adjust and find some new things to fill up her life. It's a huge adjustment when you have been married as long as they have. I will post some pictures from vacation soon.

I had a date with both of my two guys and we really had fun, times I will cherish. Trey is so much fun to be with - laid back and never in a hurry. He helps me slow down. Riley is getting so big and is so much fun to talk to. It seems as if it was just yeterday that I was walking around Weston in the heat with Kerri, trying to start her labor and feeling like we would never get to meet this wonderful little boy. Now we are getting ready to watch him begin kindergarten. I don't like it, not one bit. But there is absolutely nothing I can do about it so I will just take every minute I cn possibly share with them and make the most of it. Soon Evan will be wanting a date with Nana. We will be leaving for the beach on Friday. I am so looking forward to it. It will be good to spend some time with Nicole too, to get to know her a little more. I better get some more packing done.

I wish I could understand what is going on inside my Dad. He is so negative and depressed and then you add the fact that he can't process things you try to explain to him - it is next to impossible to interact with him. I took my mom to see him today and she left so upset. I really don't know if it is worth it because it doesn't seem to help him any either. We gave her her car today so she can start driving. She is really doing well with her recovery. I'm grateful for that. We get good reports from the nurses about Dad. He just seems to be taking it out on all of us. I really think he is angry with us. The nurses just love him and say he is making friends and is very pleasant. I would love to see that side of my Dad again. It's been a very long time since he has been that way around us.
Kerri and Eric and the boys went camping this week-end and it is storming. Not a good combination. Mike leaves for Vegas market tomorrow and I'm going to drive up to Sugar Creek and try to find a rug for my kitchen. Some friends are going with me. Friday will be here before we know it and we will be leaving for the beach. Summer will soon be over. I had a great date-day with my little Trey. He is so much fun to be with. He told me that he was going to be a cook when he grew up but he was going to cook at home. He says he is staying at home "foreser". When I asked him why, he said, "Because my Daddy loves me!"

Wow, did I get some great news today!! My sister and the entire clan in Oklahoma will be sharing Thanksgiving with us this year!!!!!! It has been far tooooooooo long. I'm so excited I can't hardly stand myself. So we will celebrate turkey day and then I vote that we have Christmas while they're here too. This is all I need for Christmas, my family all together. I hope and pray nothing gets in the way of our plans. We have so many fun memories, it will be great to finally get the chance to make some more.
We leave for the beach two weeks from tomorrow. WooHoo!!!

Back from our little get-away. We had a really nice time - very relaxing. My husband said he didn't hear me "sigh" once. I'm a "sigher". It's stress relief for me. Mike will be traveling a lot til summer is over. He has two business trips before the beach which is in three weeks and another one right after. It seems strange that vacation is almost here, I am usually looking at more like six or seven weeks before we leave. It's kind of nice to be going a little earlier. I haven't heard of many hurricanes so far this season. Hope that holds out. I really hope we can get two full weeks in this year.

I am looking forward to this week-end. Tomorrow Mike and I will leave for Nashville Indiana. A little restored town in the hills of Indiana where I can get lost. I plan on enjoying a slower pace, browsing through little shops, and eating at quaint little places that seem to have forgotten that the year is 2007. I am an Andy Griffith show fan and the other day I bought the entire first season. Lately I have felt the need to disappear into my childhood and that is one way I can do it. It was such a fun childhood, I really don't have ANY bad memories. So, I think this weekend will revive me mentally and physically as I slip back into time if only for a brief few days. I will miss my little ones but they will be having fun at the cottage. I just hope all is well with my mom and dad while I am gone.

Happy 4th!! It seems as if when we reach this point in the summer, it flies by til the end and we're thinking about Christmas!! I am at home alone this morning, Mike is golfing. It has been a very busy week taking care of my mom. She got her staples removed and will be going back to her apartment on Friday. She is doing well. We are all just struggling with my Dad's situation. He isn't happy anywhere and I really think it is too much for my mom to continue caring for him. But leaving him there is hard too. I feeling really "blah" today. I think my emotions are just somewhat drained. We watched Red,White and Boom from Kerri's new house last night. We met some really nice people across the street in a sad situation and I really don't know the answer for them. We walked around the neighborhood and I have to admit, it was a unique experience for this very sheltered woman. Kerri took me to see the gardens Eric has started. It is doing great. Right in the middle of this plot of land that his been totally ignored for so long is something alive and green and growing. All it took was a little attention. Hmmmm...

Mike just got home from his golf trip and I am so glad. It has been a really long week. Tomorrow is our 33rd wedding anniversary. I can't remember not being married to this wonderful man. He is my best friend. I am really tired tonight. I feel a little numb. It has been a stressful week. It is amazing what the "s" word can do to you. I'm really tired of stress. But it's life and it's o.k. One foot in front of the other, one day at a time. I have so much to be thankful for. Here's to a beautiful week-end. Kerri and the boys will be spending it with us and that is always a good time.

Prayers

We've had some real answers to prayer this week. It's been a long week but things are good. My mom made it through her surgery and is at re-hab where my dad is. Mike and Mikey are getting ready for their annual golf trip. It's been a little strained between them but God is working that out too. I just wish I was the one going on a golf trip. Kerri and Eric have been watching their house move to completion but somewhat slower than we had hoped. But they will soon be on the other side and enjoying their new home. Riley met his kindergarten teacher and it is the one they had hoped for. Jen left today and we will miss her but I am really excited to see what God has in store. I'm sure it will be good. So...life just keeps moving on and I'm really glad God is in control. Prayers today for Ruby, a precious little life that is so new and she is already feeling God's hand in a healing way. Prayers for mommy and daddy too!!

Happpy Birthday Evan!!! This litte guy is one and we all had so much fun celebrating. Thank you Evan for being such a joy to all of us. Nana has some very special wishes and prayers for your life and I am looking forward to another year of you growing and making us all laugh with your crooked smile and that evil little laugh. I only wish the years would slow down. You are a very special little boy and I feel truly blessed. I love you.

I call, You hear me
I've lost it all
And it's more than I can bear
I feel so empty

You're strong
I'm weary
I'm holdin' on
But I feel like givin' in
But still You're with me

And even though I'm walkin' through
The valley of the shadow
I will hold tight to the hand of Him
Whose love will comfort me
And when all hope is gone
And I've been wounded in the battle
He is all the strength that I will ever need
He will carry me

And even though I feel so lonely
Like I've never been before
You never said it would be easy
But You said you'd see me through the storm.

This is for my Dad. He has walked with God the majority of his life. I'm not sure that he can even call on God as he used to so often but my faith tells me that God can fill in the blanks and knows just what my Dad needs. He won't leave him alone now cause you see, if it's not real in the dark places, it isn't real at all. God, see him through this, see us all through this!!

Tonight I pray my Dad doesn't feel alone. I pray God will visit him and give him peace. Speak comfort to him even in his confusion. Help him sleep

More words that lift me up:

God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near, calm my fear
And take my doubt

Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes to the Maker
of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let Mercy sing her melody over me
God, right here all I bring is all of me

Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
the Lover I need to same me
Cause You fashioned the earath and You hold it together, God
So hold me now

Another week begins - one that promises to be bitter-sweet. I am moving my Dad to an assisted living facility. There's not much more that can be said about that. On the sweet side this little boy will celebrate his first birthday on Saturday. That will get me through the week. Life and its cycles can be overwhelming.

Well, so it begins. Summer- crazy, hectic, fun summer. June is always nuts and this one may set a record. Not only do we have three birthdays and an anniversary but this June will bring new beginnings for so many. My mom will be having her surgery on June 11th. Hopefully we can get my dad moved and settled by the first week of June. Don't forget Evan's first b-day. Mikey is moving this week-end and Kerri will be moving by the middle of the month, right after mom's surgery. Oh yea, Mikey's 25th b-day is sandwiched between Evan's and mom's surgery. Then of course comes 2 weeks of re-hab for mom, and Mike's b-day and our anniversary toward the end of the month. Oh I almost forgot, a big friends of the Pressley's picnic on the 16th. OMG!!as the "my-spacer's" say. I hope this old lady can keep up!!

We closed on my mom and dad's house this week. She cried. The end of chapters in your life are some of the hardest things to deal with. I didn't know what to say, so I said nothing. The older you get, the more final the chapters. It's the memories of the chapters that help us watch them come to an end. Unfortunately, my dad has very few memories of this chapter. It just doesn't seem fair.

I like to pass good things on. This speaks to me, maybey it will you.

Who is this King of Glory that persues me with His love
And haunts me with each hearing of His softly spoken words
My conscience, a reminder of forgiveness that I need
Who is this King of Glory who offers it to me

Who is this King of angels, O blessed Prince of Peace
Revealing things of heaven and all its mysteries
My spirit's ever longing for His grace in which to stand
Who is this King of glory, Son of God and son of man

His name is Jesus, precious Jesus
The Lord almighty, the King of my heart
The King of glory

Who is this King of Glory with strength and majesty
And wisdom beyond measure, the gracious King of kings
The Lord of earth and heaven, the creator of all things
Who is this King of glory, He's everything to me

The Lord of earth and heaven, the creator of all things
He is the King of glory, He's everything to me.

I had a great Mother's Day. My entire family went to church together. That hasn't happened in a long time. That was really all I needed for the day. Then Kerri and Eric fixed lunch, what a treat!! My husband gave Kerri and me gift cards for massages and pedicures at Penzones and we hung out all day just being together. My Mom came over for a short while by herself. She looked so pretty. I think it was relaxing for her to not have to worry about my Dad being there. Today Kerri and I are going to take her out for a late lunch to celebrate being mothers. I was working in my parents yard the other day and an old neighbor that I had grown up with was visiting her mother. I asked her if she had any children and she very happily said an emphatic "no". I really felt sorry for her. I am so blessed. Thanks kids!!

I got through my eye surgery - piece of cake. The recovery was a little challenging but overall a good experience. One week later and I'm already seeing 20/40. And one week after joining weight watchers, we'll see what the total is tonight, but my scales show 5 lbs. off!!! I really like this program. I feel like I am eating well and it is an easy plan to follow. Wow, the glasses gone, the weight gone, I'm going to be a new woman!! Ha!! or LOL as the myspacers say.
Mike was out of town overnight last night and I was thinking that it's really cool that we have been married almost 33 yrs and I still miss him when he's gone. I'm a pretty lucky woman. I hope and pray that will be true for my children when they reach this point in life. Right now my life is full of stuff life is made of. Life Happens. I thank God for my wonderful parents and the opportunity to help them in this new chapter of their life. I thank Him for a husband that continues to be the best friend that I so often need. I am thankful for a daughter and son-in-law that listen and obey the shepherd's voice and for a son and future daughter-in-law that are starting a new and exciting life together. And I am extra thankful for three handsome little boys that continue to light up this life in such a special way. Yea, life happens and it isn't always good but God has given me all I need and I am happy.