I have been dealing with some strange feelings, or maybe it's more like lack of feelings. I have felt somewhat numb and detached. I have no idea why, and I have decided to stop trying to figure out why. It is what it is and I will get through it. However nothing makes me feel like myself like being around my children and grandchildren. Kerri and the boys came over to spend that night last night and Nanna took them to Toys R Us for some new purchases. Nicole, Mikey and Austin joined us for dinner tonight. The simple things, the important things. There is nothing like the smiles and "thank-yous" from little ones that think you hung the moon. They are able to put a smile on my face like no one else. I thank God everyday for my beautiful family.

I am so thankful for today. Today, 2009 is a very special day. Today, 2008 wasn't so special. But I guess it really was. You see, for today 2009 to be special, we had to have today 2008. We have come a full year and things are so different. We will be celebrating today. Our family and some friends will gather and celebrate - we will be celebrating the end and the beginning. My son turned his back on an old lifestyle one year ago and how God has turned his life around is something we must truly CELEBRATE!!!! It has been something to watch, often in awe and amazement. As we move forward from here, I don't want to forget all the bad days, they serve to make these days that much more special. I'm looking forward to posting some celebration pictures soon.