Higher than my ways

I haven't blogged for a while because I just can't seem to get my thoughts together. So today I will borrow some thoughts.

You said that nothing could tear us apart
Your ways are higher than my ways
You said forever and that's who You are
Your ways are higher than my ways
You make the sun and the rain to fall
You take me through it all

I can't see over the mountain
Your ways are higher than my ways
I can't see myself around it
Your ways are higher than my ways

So many times I want to give up
Your ways are higher than my ways
And you remind me of your unfailing love
Your ways are higher than my ways

I can't see myself around it these days but may I never forget that His ways are higher than my ways!!

Doin' Fine

Yes, we are all doin' fine. I am finally starting to feel "normal" again. Finishing the anti-biotic has helped with that. Time is marching on. My Dad seems to be struggling more and more mentally, the day Mikey will have to leave is getting closer and closer, Eric and Chan will be moving to their apartment this week-end and I will start back to work next week. Time just keeps moving. I was able to get my husband to slow down this week-end and I think it helped. He can fall into his work-a-holic mode so quickly if I'm not careful. I was able to get back to church yesterday and boy did that feel good. We went to Kerri's for lunch after and soaked up the grandkids. It was a really good day. Thanks to everybody for all your prayers lately. I read a lot of your blogs and know that I pray for a lot of you often. Some of you I've never met but I feel as if I know you. Guess that's all for today. Have a good one.

Sorry for two posts in one day but I just wanted to share these words with you.

O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
Vast, unmeasured, boundles, free!
Rolling as a mighty ocean in its fullness over me!
Underneath me, all around me, is the current of Thy love
Leading onward, leading homeward to
Thy glorious rest above!

O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
Spread His praise from shore to shore!How He loveth, ever loveth, changeth
never, nevermore!
How He watches o'er His loved ones,
died to call them all His own
How for them He intercedeth, watcheth
o'er them from the throne!

O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
'Tis a heav'n of heav'ns to me
And it lifts me up to glory, for it lifts me up to Thee!

Words and music by Samuel Francis and Thomas Williams

Shock and Awe

I know I shouldn't be but I am. I am standing back and watching God's magnificent grace lift my son to someplace I don't think he has been before. Has anyone ever asked you to think back on a time when God's grace was so real in your life there was no denying it? I am sure this will be one of his times that he will be able to point to. We are always in need of God but sometimes we are more keenly aware of that need than others. It seems everybody close to me right now is very aware of that need and we are becoming increasingly more aware of God's hand at work. It looks like Eric and Chan have found an apartment and she has an interview Thursday. The kids continue to come home smiling and I can honestly say my son seems more happy and content than I can remember. (Thanks to my nephew for being there for him) I have really been lazy today. I know I' m not 100% yet because I'm not too antsy about staying in. I will really be glad when I feel like myself again. The babies have remained fairly healthy for awhile(knock on wood) and my beautiful daughter is her beautiful self. She has become such a constant in my life I don't know what I would do without her. I love you Kerri!!

I'm Back

Well, here I am. Last night about 3:30 I wasn't too sure I would be. I had a pretty rough night in the hospital. ( oh yea, pneumonia!!) Pray for my roommate, Betty. A sweet little lady who's favorite word is "shit". She's so sad and confused and not at all in the right place. She get's plenty of "Honey's" and "can't you eat a little?" But not what she realy needs. I'm not quite sure what hit me or why but I know I don't want to go through that again. Once again, what would I do without family. The best medicine I received were the little ones and my babies coming to see me. The support of my mom and my daughter as we listened for the news from Mike about Mikey. Of course my husband, words don't even work there. Then Eric and Chan doing more than just keeping things together. My house is cleaner than when I left. I am so blessed. I got home tonight to a little redhead jumping up and down at the door pleading for Uncle Mike to carry up the giat Gardfield Mikey gave her. I took a shower, climbed into a warm bed and listened as each member of my family returned home. The kids love school. Eric and Mikey returned from a business trip and the laughter was so comforting.

Mikey goes to jail in a month for 30 days and then to in-house re-hab for 90 days. Last night I was quite sure I didn't have the strength to face it. I wish you could all see his attitude. If I try to describe it you will think I am exagerrating or seeing what I want to see. Trust me I'm not, I'm gaining strength from him. Right now he is downstairs helping his cousin with her homework. I'll pause here just for a moment so that picture can fully come up on your screen. He told me today that his best friend, Joel, had called and he told him the court said he could take one friend to jail with him and he had been picked. You really have to know Mikey to understand, he isn't making light of his situation, it's just how he copes. Frankly I wish I had a few more of those coping skills. We have a long road ahead of us but I feel like he has turned a corner. A more positive attitude on his part would be impossible and a bigger God on our side would be far more impossible.
Thanks for all your prayers . I'm going to take it easy for a while so my blogs may come a little more frequent than any of you would like. Feel free to not read them all!!