What a great birthday!! Thanks to my mom, dad, Mike and Mikey, Kerri, Eric, the cutest little boys in the world and of course the ever popular Jen Leonard - I had a stupendous birthday celebration. I love you all!!

We had a beautiful Christmas day and I hate to admit it but I (and even my husband) slipped into some kind of funk and we have been fighting it for several days. I think we are finally getting on top of it but it is hard when you aren't quite sure what caused it. This is a true confession as I am very ashamed I allowed this to happen. This season of the year is so beautiful and God's blessings on our lives have been just as beautiful. Oh well, beating myself up won't help either. Speaking of God's blessings, He is able to grant us His grace even in the midst of a funk. Ironically, I think this state I have been in is somewhat related to the amount of time I have practiced His presence in my life lately. So tonight I am thankful for the way He loves us all the time no matter what no questions asked, no strings attached.

Well, hopefully we are all on the mend. I came down with a stomach bug and it put a damper on me celebrating little man's birthday but nevertheless, he is now two. It was a great celebration full of Thomas stuff everywhere you looked. Mike and I went on a shopping marathon yesterday and I am almost done. I waited too long for one item and I can't find it now. If anybody knows where I can get the new George Foreman grill with the interchangeable grills let me know. It's all wrapped and I can concentrate on menus now. Have you ever noticed how we all ask each other if we are "ready" for Christmas. Ready or not, here IT comes. That's the wonderful thing about it. Christmas, the real spirit of Christmas always comes, right on time whether all the presents are purchased or not. I love the Christmas Carol "The Little Drummer Boy". I love the line at the end; "then He smiled at me". Sometimes I wonder why He keeps smiling at us with all the crap we bring. Merry Christmas!!

I watched my very special grandson in his Christmas pre-school program tonight. So cute!! Friday we will celebrate my other special grandson on turning "2". Gifts from God. Thanks God. And we will have another gift for next Christmas. I'm really enjoying the season. It will be over far too soon for me. Can you tell I REALLY like this time of the year?!!
I have a friend whose life is a mess. Prayers for her tonight.

Another blessed week-end. We had some dear friends over last night and Kerri and the boys spent the night with us. I love being able to have extra time (not just on Christmas day) to spend in my house with the boys enjoying the decorations and expectation of Christmas. Mikey came over and watched the Bengals win with his dad. It was just a nice week-end. Hopefully Mike is on the mend and he will feel better tomorrow. He really likes the way the muscle relaxers help him sleep. Ha! I really hope some of the pain has subsided by tomorrow. Another week. They just keep flying by. Looks like some more snow. My prayer tonight is that I will never take a day for granted. I am so blessed and I hope I can pass some of my blessings on to someone this week. Good Night!

I watched the boys today while Kerri and my mom went shopping. What a fun time!! I finally got to see Polar Express. What a great movie. I had purchased some beautiful authentic sleigh bells this year and they are on my front doorknob. No matter how old I get I hope I can always hear the sleigh bells. I highly recommend Polar Express especially if you don't believe.

Well, Christmas is closing in on us. We are all either trying to get over illness or trying not to get it. Whatever is out there sure does want to hang around for a while once it hits. I'm still working out 4 to 5 times a day and meeting with my personal trainer. I am slowly seeing some results. I know I am doing something good for myself and probably even adding on some years and that's a good thing. We have decided to go back to our home church. We just want to worship with our friends (actually they're like family) again. Sunday was our first time and it felt pretty good. Think I'll pass on another song for Christmas. It is Mary's song but I think we all have had these feelings sometime on our journey.

I have traveled many moonless nights.
Cold and weary with a babe inside.
and I wonder what I've done.
Holy Father, You have come
Chosen me now to carry your son

I am waiting in a silent prayer.
I am frightened by the load I bear.
In a world as cold as stone
Must I walk this path alone
Be with me now, be with me now.

Do you wonder as you watch my face,
If a wiser one, should have had my place
But I offer all I am
For the mercy of your plan.
Help me be strong
Help me be
Help me

Breath of Heaven hold me together be forever near me
Breath of Heaven
Breath of Heaven light in my darkness
Pour over me your holyness
For you are holy
Breath of Heaven

Reading from one of my very favorite books today; "Disciplines for the Inner Life":

"Freedom from anxiety is characterized by three inner attitudes. If what we have we receive as a gift, and if what we have is to be cared for by God, and if what we have is available to others, then we will possess freedom from anxiety. 'This is the inward realit of simplicity.'
...To receive what we have as a gift from God is the first inner attitude of simplicity. We work but we know that it is not our work that gives us what we have. We live by grace even when it comes to daily bread...What we have is not the result of our labor, but of the gracious care of God. When we are tempted to think that what we own is the result of our personal efforts, it takes only a little drought or a small accident to show us once again how radically dependent we are for everything.
To know that it is God's business and not ours to care for what we have is the second inner attitude of simplicity. God is able to protect what we possess We can trust Him... Simplicity means the freedom to trust God for these and all things.
To have our goods available to others marks the third inner attitude of simplicity. Martin Luther said somewhere, 'If our goods are not available to the community they are stolen goods.' The reason we find these words so difficult is our fear of the future...But if we truly believe that God is who Jesus said He is, then we do not need to be afraid." Richard J. Foster

I love this song -
Fall on your knees, O hear the angel voices.
O night divine, O night when Christ was born.

I love this time of year. I don't want to miss it. I want Christmas to change me this year.

Well, it seems as if the pre-winter funk has visited our family. Mike has pains(or he is a pain - I can never keep that straight), Mikey has the crud, Trey has the pukes and I'm in a funk. Don't know for sure what my problem is. Maybe I just don't like everybody being sick. Sure hope this all passes soon. We have too much celebrating to do this month to be sick. "Short-round- one" will be turning 2. I can't believe it, it seems he was just blessing us with his arrival a short while ago and now we are waiting on a new one. I will try to motivate myself to pack up some Christmas decorations I have been hanging on to and drop them at Goodwill. I just have too much stuff. Putting up my fresh greenery will be the final touch today. We found a beautiful tree at Straders. The fragrance is inbelievable. I recommend it if you are looking for a real tree, probably the nicest trees I have seen for a while. Hope everyone is beginning to feel festive, it is coming quickly.

We all need a soft place to fall.

There's snow on the ground!!!! SNOW!! Call me crazy(I've been called worse) but I love snow. I got so excited I was dancing to Bruce Springsteen's "Merry Christmas Baby" in my family room. Yea, I know you're all saying you wish you could have seen that!

O.K. my daughter is calling me a blog slacker and I can't let that happen. Truth is my life has been so boring I've had little to blog about - and I love it. I started going to a gym and I am even using a personal trainer. I love it. I wish I had done this years ago. I was always so out of it when it came to physical things when I was young. My sister and I used to joke that we were the grace sisters. It's funny how you get a picture of yourself and carry that around for years. I just never thought I had the stamina to really work out. My trainer says I am doing great and I can't tell you how good it has made me feel, not just physically but in every way. It might sound silly and it is hard for me to explain but it is really changing me. I don't know, I'm just really glad I started. My house is pretty much ready for Christmas and I'm looking forward to a great week-end. We are taking the boys to the zoo tomorrow evening to see the Christmas lights. Kerri, Jen and the boys will stay overnight Friday. Saturday morning we will go to my Mom's to help her decorate and then the BIG GAME!!! GO BUCKS!!! Then we will prepare for Thanksgiving. This week I have been totally overwhelmed by God's blessings. I love how He takes care of us. He is far too good to us.

Not feeling the greatest today but I've been thinking about something I read on a wall hanging this week-end. "Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take but by the number of moments that take our breath away." I really like that.

O.K. I'm tired. I went to Waynesville all day yesterday with my good friend Pam and did some fun shopping. We laughed and shopped til we dropped. Today Mike and I tried to conquor some major clean-up projects that just had to get done. In a few minutes I'll head down to put the boys to bed so Eric and Kerri can help Amy and Mark celebrate. I'm looking forward to church tomorrow, it's been too long. Then our first OSU basketball game. Big week-end. Monday I have my first appointment with my new personal trainer. I am going to get into shape and take off this excess bulk. I'm really looking forward to getting started. I get my new kitchen table Monday but Mike will be gone most of the week. If anyone wants to come put it up for me I would really appreciate it!! Ha!! I tried to bribe my son-in-law with dinner but he didn't take the bait. I'm really looking forward to the holidays. I will probably spend the week making new decorations and beginning to plan Thanksgiving dinner. I may even begin baking some cookies. Who knows.

Another good week-end. Walking through the leaves with Trey, watching Riley with his buddies at soccer. Mikey seems to be doing so well. But of course I live one day at a time and try to enjoy every minute. My mom is struggling with my dad and I really don't know the answer. Growing old is so hard it just doesn't seem like it should be this way. Watched another great Home Makeover story. So many hurting people in this world. Wish I could make more of a difference. I thank God for my blessings and pray I never, never take them for granted. Prayers for all my family tonight. I love them all.

Well they say that it's a fact, if you watch the sky at night
And if you stare into the darkness you might see celestial lights.
And if your heart is empty and there's no hope inside
There's a chance you'll find an answer in the sky.

Well they say that it's a shame if you have nothing to believe
And if you can't hold on to something you might as well die where you sleep.
You don't need a prayer and there's no price to ask why
Sometimes you'll find an answer in the sky.

And it's all so much bigger than it seems
And it overwhelms us now and then
And I'm banking on a chance that we believe
That good can still control the hearts of men.

This life's a long old road we shouldn't have to walk alone
But if you find the right companion you won't feel so worn out when you've grown

All life is precious and every day's a prize
And sometimes you'll find an answer in the sky.

Somehow I think the key word in all of this for me is "sometimes". I've learned that I don't always have all the answers in fact, there isn't always an answer to be found. That has to be o.k. sometimes.

I'm so glad to be home. I don't do well in the business world for very long. I can play the role for a while but a week is long enough. Making lists, finding new recipes and decorations for the holidays now that's where I'm comfortable. I'm about ready to hit the stores to try some new things for my favorite time of the year. Kerri, the boys, Mom and Dad and Mikey will join us for dinner tonight. My daughter is craving comfort food so meatloaf and mashed potatoes are on the menu for tonight's dinner. Pumpkin bread is already in the oven. Went to the orthopedic doctor and yes my elbow is broken. But the good news is it is healing fine on it's own. I was going to have to box with the doctor if he tried to put me in a cast right before the holidays!! I now walk down my stairs carrying my shoes. Pumpkin bread's done, better get movin'.

Well I'm home again. We had probably a record market. It went very fast but was very tiring. A lot of stress but it all worked out. The guys will be home today. I'm anxious to settle in to the holiday season. I went to see my boys as soon as I got in town. I will take today to rest up, maybe even tomorrow! Ha! Not much more to say. When you come back from market, it feels like a re-entry process. You are so cut off from the real world. It's good to be back.

A really good evening with my beautiful daughter. Dinner at one of our favorite places, Brio, A really cute new maternity outfit and a good movie. Family - one of God's greatest blessings. Mike and Mikey are already at market and I leave tomorrow. It's become a rather nice interruption, a change of pace so to speak. But don't let my husband know that. Kerri and I took the boys to the pumpkin patch last night. It is such a relaxing, family place. The wide-eyed squeal of Trey as he slid down the slide was priceless. Riley pumped his fist and said "awesome" after every time down. A straw maze, hayride and Trey giggling at the moon "up high" confirms that it's the simple things in life that bring the most joy. Sounds really corny but so true. Well, tomorrow begins a long week, I better hit the sack.

Go Bucks!! Yea, I know they lost. But everytime they lose I am reminded of the important things in life. The year my son almost lost his life, there was a letter in the paper about how it was such a crisis for the Bucks to lose. My husband immediately wrote a letter to the editor of that column and talked about real crisis. Let's see - important things in life; God's love, the love of family, peace with those around you, seeing the sunrise of a new day, children that make you laugh and the knowledge that "all things work together for good". Oh, and then there's chocolate!! It's a little cloudy out there this morning but somehow I just knew the sun would come up even though the Buckeyes lost. There's always next week.

I had so much fun with Trey today. He is such a special little boy. We played with Little People( I love watching him play, he is so intense), went to Target for some special treats, had snack at Barnes and Noble, played with Thomas and went to storytime. It's really fun when I get time with one of my boys at a time. You just can't find anything wrong with a day like today.

Well, summer is officially over. I made my normal stop at my favorite farm market for my peaches and was informed that this was the last they would have for the summer. Not a big deal to most but for me it is. See, I really like peaches. But only GOOD peaches and they are not easy to find. And everytime I eat a peach I think of my Papaw. I remember lots of days with my Papaw(the most wonderful person that every walked the earth!!) But one day I really remember is the day he put me in his truck and we drove to the roadside market. On the way home the peaches were in the back and finally it was more than we could stand. He pulled over on the side of the road, reached in back and handed me a peach. We sat there together eating our peaches but they weren't ordinary peaches. They were so big I had to use two hands and they were so juicy it rolled down my arms. That's the only way to eat a peach. Well, when I found out that this was the last of the peaches of course I had to buy a bunch. So this week, everytime I eat a peach I will have to eat one more for Papaw.

What a great few days Mike and I had!! We had the little ones since Thursday night. I am so tired but so fulfilled. They literally make my life wonderful. It was fun to watch Riley and Papa share the old classic cartoons like Tweetie Bird and Popeye. They both giggled like little kids. Trey is such a little brute but such a lover. The week-end included dinner with Jean and DocDoc, a trip to the store for lunch boxes and new shirts and a treat of M&M's. Shhhh, don't tell. Lunch with Mikey, the family room filled with toys and several trips around the block in the jeep. Thanks, Kerri and Eric for giving these two wonderful boys to our family and giving us so much time with them. The house sure is quiet.

Not much going on but I haven't blogged in a while. I have finally recovered from losing 4 days of our vacation. I know, I know I should be grateful and I am. Life has gotten back to normal. Tomorrow the little ones will arrive and I will have them all week-end. Fun times!! After that I will begin preparing for market. Yea!! Actually it isn't that bad and I think we are going to have a good one. It is time for business to pick up. I've been carrying around some STUFF lately and I'm not sure how to let it go. Actually I'm not sure I should, maybe it's to be carried by me right now. I just keep praying for strength. Sometimes I feel really tired emotionally. Oh well, enough whining. Think I'll go take a walk.

Home

Well we made it there and back. We had a wonderful vacation, just had to cut it short. I always love coming home but if we had just been able to finish the entire vacation the coming home would have been better. Yes, Ophelia had her way with us. We were forced out by a mandatory evacuation. We tried every way possible to stay. We considered going to Myrtle until they would let us back on the island but decided it wasn't worth the gamble. If we had all been there the first week it would have been easier but Mikey and Eric were only there three days and didn't get to experience the beautiful weather we had. But I am grateful for the time away and looking forward to jumping into Fall and all the things a new season brings.

Katrina

I'm praying today. May God keep us all in an attitude of prayer for the people living the nightmare brought on by this storm.

A Sunday the way Sunday's are meant to be. A house full of family, water gun fights, basketball, food, swinging on the front porch, a monopoly game, and beautiful paintings by two of the cutest little boys you'll ever see. Just kickin' back and relaxing. Thank you God for the beautiful gift of this day.

We went to the high school football game last night. First of all I can't believe it is time for football again. Then, I continue to see kids I had in pre-school; cheering, graduating, all the things they're not supposed to be old enough to do. Isn't there some way we can make time slow down?!! But I really don't feel that old and for that I am thankful. We had a good time. Saw lots of people I hadn't seen for awhile. Plus, Gahanna won. So begins fall. But our family is still in the summer frame of mind - we still have two weeks at the beach to enjoy.

Just a few days til we leave for the beach. I'm trying to start packing but not making much progress. I am so blessed to be close to my grandchildren. This morning Riley asked me if I would go to the park with him. Gee, let me think about it - YES!! It won't be that long til he won't be asking me to go to the park. So a quick trip to the park took up my morning. I was really sorry to hear that Palmer is back in the hospital. So hard to understand but still resting in the fact that God is in control. Praying for complete healing like my friend last week. Our speaker at church Sunday reminded us that healing is not for healing sake but for the glory of God. May God continue to make Himself known through Palmer's life.

I love the old songs of the church and I appreciate God bringing them to my memory from time to time.
Redeemed and so happy in Jesus no language my rapture can tell.
I know that the light of His presence with me doth continually dwell.

I know I shall see in His beauty, the King in whose law I delight.
Who lovingly guards every footstep and gives me a song in the night.

Redeemed, I'm redeemed.
Redeemed by the blood of the Lamb.
Redeemed, redeemed,
His child and forever I am

It's been a good week even with my husband gone. I'm glad he's coming home today though. I took Mom and Dad down to see the boys this morning. Riley wanted them to see his new bike. We had a good time. Dad doesn't complain quite as much about things as he used to. Ha! Guess he's learned it doesn't change anything. I spent Thursday night with Jen and Kerri and Trey after seeing the Wiggles. Dinner and a video. Then Mikey and Deanna let me hang out with them last night. I love my family. Life is good today. One day at a time I always say.

God has really been speaking to me about "practicing His presence". Seems as if I have gone through a time in my life that I haven't done that quite as naturally as I have in the past. A lot of how I have been feeling lately made sense when God tapped me on the shoulder and made me aware of this. He has also gone out of His way in the past 24 hrs. to show me that He is still at work in the lives of people. A long time friend of mine has had physical problems for the past 2 yrs. Long story short; she was in the operating room at the Mayo Clinic already under and ready and the doctor decided for some reason to do one more test to see what he was facing. The kidney blockage that she had arrived with was no longer there. They literally scratched their heads and sent her home. She feels great, no white cells in her blood or urine and there is no stint in her kidney. Go figure!!! I really love the Lord tonight. Just needed to say that. As Riley says, "Dod is dood, yes He is." Prayers go out for my family tonight, especially for Ginger. Blessed are they that mourn for they shall be comforted. Joy comes in the morning. Hugs to all my family.

Another nice week-end. Some good friends were over Friday night and Kerri and the boys spent the night. I always love that. One evening we had an impromptu invitation to our neighbors. They had grilled too much food and we shared a meal with them on their porch. Sometimes things that aren't planned are the best. The exterior of our house has been brightened up with a fresh coat of paint. Vacation is getting closer and I will probably start piling things in the corner to begin packing. Trey has no idea what the beach is but everytime we mention it he claps and puts his hands up in the air. I think he sees the smiles on our faces and figures it must be something good. Mike will be leaving again Sunday for yet another market. I bought the coolest desk lamp with a little fan in it - hopefully it will take care of my hot flashes. I'm just rambling but what that means is life is fairly normal. Yes, normal even boring can be good. We were woken up at 1:30 a.m. by the phone ringing. Scared the #*!^ out of us. Too many of those over the years and you tend to find your stomach in your throat when it happens. Luckily it was a wrong number. Think I'll close now and see if there is anything interesting on e-bay.

We celebrated Riley's birthday tonight. I can't believe he's turning 4. We had such a good time. We played putt-putt and then came back to our house for pizza and birthday cake. He loved his Buzz Lightyear toys and the electric car was a big hit. It was cute watching him take his little brother for a ride. It was a pleasant distraction to have something so fun to do after saying good-bye to Eric, Chan and the kids. That wasn't fun. I'm such a weenie when it comes to good-byes. Our prayers go with them. We're having some friends over tomorrow night. I'm looking forward to it, it's been a while since we've seem some of them. Sure hope this hot weather breaks. Looking forward to a good week-end.

I can't believe it's Friday. I've had a good week overall. When Mike left Sunday I was afraid It would be long but I was able to relax, spend some good time with friends and family and get some projects at least started. He'll be home at midnight and Kerri and I will be at Picnic with the Pops earlier in the evening. It's also been another week that reminds me we really don't know what each day will bring. Uncertain times for family but lots of prayer will sustain us all. I really want to be there for all my family. I love them so much. Well, it's a a beautiful day, lots to be thankful for. Today I want to live expecting - expecting good things for those I love, expecting to see God's hand and expecting His faithfulness that has always been there for us.

Mike left yesterday for a week at the Vegas Furniture Market. I hate it when he is gone that long. Oh well.... you would think I would be o.k. with it after all these years. I had a really good day with Kerri, the boys and Jen yesterday. I even had dinner with Eric. I think I will take advantage of this week and finally work on my scrap book from our first family beach trip, almost a year ago. We will be heading that direction in just a few weeks so I thought it might be nice to have last year's book done. The boys should be bouncing off the walls when I see them next. They are going to a Maurice Sendak Exhibit of some of his books; Where the Wild Things Are and In the Night Kitchen. It includes costumes and role-playing. What a great time they will have. DON'T FORGET YOUR CAMERA KERRI!!!!

I Do Believe

So many questions, discussions, arguments, politics, religions. I have realized lately I am a VERY simple person. For me, it works. And yes, I find songs that say it for me because like I said, I'm simple and not very clever. So below is someone's words that speak to me, just thought I would share:

Some say faith is just believing
Others say it's self-deceiving
Inventing childish dreams to get us through
But deep inside me there's a yearning
For true wisdom not just learning
I'd trade all my clever questions for one answer that is true

Lord you know I need some answers
Questions eat at me like cancer
Make me once again a simple child
Help me take the risk of losing
Lose it all to find in choosing
To believe You are the answer earth and heaven reconciled

I do believe
You are the One
The home I've longed to find
My only hope
God's only Son
I do believe
I touch I see
That all along you've longed to be
My Lord my God.

We attended Eric's sister's wedding yesterday. What a breathtakingly beautiful bride!! Riley was so grown up and did a wonderful job with his "job". He escorted his little 2yr. old bride down the aisle and looked so handsome doing it. Then there was Trey in his "shorts" that hit him about mid-calf because his legs are so short. By the time he arrived at the reception his shoes had been disposed of and he was flirting with all the bridesmaids and dancing on the dance floor before the music actually began. He is definitely a ladies man. I realized that between the Stetler's and the Pressley's there is only one more to marry off - Pup. I'm not sure that will happen before Riley gets married!!
My husband is really tired from a lot of traveling. So right now he is spending Sunday in his chair eating eggs, bacon and sliced tomatoes and watching the British Open.

Well I've learned lately that we must be flexible. We had to postpone Mom's b-day dinner because Riley was sick. We were a little concerned because of his symptoms but fortunately he has just picked up a virus. The little guy was having some serious headaches and we were glad to hear that it wasn't anything worse. We will shoot for dinner next Monday night. We really want to have everybody there if possible since it's such a milestone for Mom. Hopefully we will be able to pull it off.

Another good day. A good worship service, we found a really good chinese restaurant, some office work(lots of Value City orders - a very good thing) made dinner for Mikey and his girlfriend, we went putt-putting and wrapped up the evening at the Dairy Queen. (Not a healthy choice as Riley would say!!) Think I'll go to bed I've got a busy day getting ready for Mom's B-day party. Another week already. The summer is going entirely too fast!!

A really good day. I spent the morning with Kerri, Jen, Riley, Trey and Micah. A visit from the mouse who stars in "If You Give A Mouse A Cookie". Pizza for lunch. Home where I helped my husband with some office work, made some dinner, listened to some good gospel music, took a walk, all in all a good day. I'm looking forward to the sabbath. I'm planning an 80th birthday dinner for my mom Monday. Simple pleasures, they're definitely the best. Good-night

I love these words:

I then shall live as one who's been forgiven
I'll walk with joy to know my debts are paid
I know my name is clear before my Father
I am His child, and I am not afraid
So greatly pardoned, I'll forgive my brother
The law of love I gladly will obey

I then shall live as one wh0's learned compassion
I've been so loved that I'll risk loving, too
I know how fear builds walls instead of bridges
I dare to see another's point of view
And when relationships demand commitment
Then I'll be there to care and follow through

Your kingdom come around and through and in me
Your pow'r and glory, let them shine through me
Your Hallowed Name, O may I bear with honor
And may Your living Kingdom come in me
The Bread of Life, O may I share with honor
And may You feed a hungry world through me
Amen

I still believe in your faithfulness
I still believe in your truth
I still believe in your holy word
even when I don't see, I still believe

I haven't been feeling well the past week. Not sure what is wrong just not feeling 100%. I can't believe June is almost over. Seems like I say that every summer some things just don't change like how fast time flies. Today is my husbands birthday. He is such a fantastic guy. I am truly blessed to be able to share my life with him. Spaghetti dinner and cheesecake tomorrow night, two of his favorites. Steaks on the grill tonight with just the two of us. Happy Birthday Mike!!! He is counting the days for Red White and Boom. He just LOVES it!! Ha!! But he'll be there with bells on that's just the kind of guy he is. Of course the price we pay is listening to him complain the entire evening. Actually that started about May. He's such a twit!! Come by and visit us. We will be in our normal place right by the City Center in the grassy valley. It's a great spot. Well enough rambling. Have a great 4th.

Today was our wedding anniversary. I am married to the best guy in the world even though he did plan a golf trip during our anniversary. That's o.k., he sent me a dozen roses and he's still the best guy in the world. He'll be home late tomorrow night. I'm glad. I miss him. I always miss him when he is gone. Not bad for 31 years - to be able to say I still miss him. I'm really blessed.

Mike and Mikey left before dawn for their long-awaited golf trip celebration. This is a special trip to celebrate. Some people might wonder what we have to celebrate. I've learned to celebrate each day. The past has taught us so much and we are different people today due to choices that have been made but primarily due to God's faithfulness. I told Mikey yesterday how proud I am of him. He has paid and is still paying for his choices but he has allowed these experiences to make him a better person. I hope these next few days are full of memories they will never forget. They are playing my favorite golf course even as I am writing this and I'm sure Mike and Gerald have figured out a way to get some strokes from Mikey and Jeff. Then they will head to Pinehurst. I'm sure good times will be had by all. I imagine Mike is having a great Father's Day - playing Old Beau with his son. Who could ask for anything more!!

Just a couple verses I am mulling over in my mind and heart today. Thought I would pass them on.

"Consider it pure joy, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not laking anything." ( James 1:2-4 NIV)

"God is keeping careful watch over us and the future. The Day is coming when you'll have it all - life healed and whole. I know how great this makes you feel, even though you have to put up with every kind of aggrvation in the meantime. Pure gold put in the fire comes out of it proved pure; genuine faith put through this suffering comes out proved genuine. When Jesus wraps this all up, it's your faith, not your gold that God will have on display as evidence of His victory." 1Peter 1:5-7 The Message)

We have found ourselves in some crazy situations lately that we have laughed about after the fact. But actually if God hadn't intervened things wouldn't have been so funny. Of course I already eluded to the flying swimming pool. That could've been really ugly. But I think my husband topped that today in PA. He was chased down by a crazy lady in a truck through a field by the side of the road. Yea, it's true I'm not making that up. Actually I don't think we are aware of all of the times God intervenes to keep us safe. Just spending a quiet night alone thinking and praying about all the people that need answers to prayer. I have a pretty long list at the moment and it will be good to look back and see how God worked. Always good to see Douglas Wharton. I dropped some things off at Kerri's and surprise, surprise look who was there looking so handsome with his summer shave!!Ha!! Everyone have a good evening.

It seems that everyday lately brings questions. Questions that have no answers or at least not ones that satisfy us completely. Questions that motivate me to pray. But then I have a lot of questions about prayer right now. Because of all these questions with no answers I finally get to the end and realize the best thing I can do is let God handle things. Sounds simple ,huh? No but I truly believe it is where we need to live. Trusting in an unfailing Father that sees things through different eyes and knows exactly what He is doing. One thing I do know today; I LOVE HIM. With all my heart, I love Him. I thank Him for this day with all it's questions. I want to honor Him.

Today is Mikey's 23rd birthday. He is alive and well and for that I am truly grateful. He has lived more life experiences in his 23 years than I have in mine (I'm not telling how many) He is teaching all of us how to live one day at a time. I am convinced this is how God wants all of us to live. My grandparents used to always say,"The good Lord willing". I don't think that is in my vocabulary enough. I am trying very hard to commit everyday to God and just let Him take care of things. Not always easy but when I do it really works. Some random wisdom from someone with experience: Don't put a kids swimming pool in the back of a truck, weigh it down with bags of sand and drive on 270. Just trust me, it doesn't work. I'm looking forward to a great week-end. Kerri and the kids will spend the night since Eric is in Mt.Vernon for Blast. Dinner tomorrow night for Mikey's birthday . A good week-end, the good Lord willing.

I've always been a very emotional person. The last few years my emotions have been on steroids. I can cry at the drop of a hat. So I guess I shouldn't have been too surprised when I completely broke down in the middle of the Kroger store after passing a little old man that really had no business being there by himself. I'm watching my parents age every day. I left my mother's house yesterday crying as she sat on the front porch by herself with just her plants around her. My Dad hadn't even realize we had left the family room . I was planning a big party for my Mom's 80th birthday in July and she doesn't want one. But don't worry, our family will still have a party. I just thought she would like to have her friends help celebrate. I really don't like the thought that I am getting older. I want so badly to stay young at heart considering that we don't have any choice about our bodies getting old. Time passes so quickly, why does it have to be that way? I guess if I have no choice in the matter one thought does help; I love who I am growing older with. I wouldn't change that at all. So this month we will celebrate another birthday for my son, my husband and our 31st wedding anniversary. Time just marches on and the best we can do is enjoy, enjoy every day . Have a good day everybody!

I LOVE MY GRANDCHILDREN!!!! Kerri and Eric went to Cedar Point yesterday and I had the kids ALL DAY . They are awesome kids. We took a walk to the pretend pizza store, played at Nana's house, fed the ducks at the creekwalk, had dinner at Bob Evans, went to the park and fell into bed. I love them so much it sometimes hurts. I would love to shield them from everything that could harm them in this world but unfortunately that's not possible. So - I pray for them, I pray hard and trust that they will be happy and healthy. And I thank God everyday for these wonderful blessings He has given to our family. Lord keep them safe, keep them happy - just keep them.

A very eventful day. We had a little "open house" for Mikey today. An opportunity to thank those that have been there for us. What a good time. Good people, good friends. We are blessed. My friend Doug stopped by sorry he had missed the party. He is really struggling with his own very serious situation. I can't seem to find any words to make it better. Extended family going through tough stuff. God reminded me today at church that He is in control. I just have to keep believing that. Sometime that's all we have. He wants it to be enough.

In Christ alone my hope is found
He is my light, my strength, my song
This Cornerstone, this solid ground
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease
My Comforter, my All in All
Here in the love of Christ I stand

In Christ alone, who took on flesh
Fullness of God in helpless babe
This gift of love and righteousness
Scorned by the ones He came to save
'til on that cross as Jesus died
The wrath of God was saatisfied
For every sin on Him was laid
Here in the death of Christ I live

There in the ground His body lay
Light of the world by darkness slain
Then bursting forth in glorious Day
Up from the grave He rose again
And as He stands in victory
Sin's curse has lost its grip on me
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ

No guilt of life, no fear of death
This is the power of Christ in me
From life's first cry to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
No power of hell, no scheme of man
Can ever pluck me from His hand
'til He returns or calls me home
Here in the power of Christ I'll stand

I heard a really good sermon today about hardship. He said that the problem with Christians in the U.S. is that we have this mistaken idea that life is supposed to be easy. That it's not normal to have hard times. I am reminded of an old song:

I thank God for the mountains and I thank Him for the valleys
I thank Him for the storms He's brought me through.
For if I never had a problem, I wouldn't know that He could solve them ,
I wouldn't know what faith in His word could do.

My son said the other day that he wouldn't trade anything he's been through for an easier way. I'm glad he feels that way because he has learned that the good and the bad go together to make us into what God wants us to be. In order to learn everything we can about God we need both, so we can see how He is able to work through it all.

So much STUFF going on right now. It seemed to overwhelm me some this week-end but I'm dealing much better. Things I'm learning at Al-Anon can help in all areas and relationships of my life. I think I'm going to look around for a little better fit in another group but I realized tonight that what I have experienced and still am going through I want to be able to use to help others as often as possible. I met a couple tonight that were so full of pain for their son that it seemed to be smeared all over them. My heart went out to them. They had just registered their son in a 28 day program. He is a drug user. They live 3 hrs from here and were on their way home. I could make a list of all the different emotions they had to be feeling. I felt as if I was reliving them all. The best thing I could tell them was to go home, take care of themselves and pray for their son. It isn't always easy but it works. Mikey talked to me today about what he is learning from "Purpose Driven Life". Trust me, that's a big deal!! God is doing a good thing.

My Wonderful Family

Well I watched the last episode of Raymond tonight. Once again it made me laugh and I needed that. But more than that it gave me a little reminder - don't ever take the people you love for granted. Tonight I prayed for my family. I love them and I never want to take them for granted. So for any of my family that reads this post - I love you, I really, really do. And tonight you were prayed for.

The last few days I have enjoyed having my sister visiting. I wish so much she lived nearby but I guess that isn't to be. We really had a nice time. Our trip to Lancaster to see Mikey gave us some time to really talk like we haven't for a long time. I am so glad they were able to see each other. She is leaving today and I will begin getting ready for Pup's return home. I will pick him up bright and early Wednesday morning. So we begin another week full of hope and good days ahead. One day at a time. Lord help me live that way.

Great News

We received some great news today. Mikey will be released from re-hab May 11th, one week from today. YEA!!!!!!!!! It's been a long road and we are coming to the end of this part of the journey. We'll all keep praying and supporting him. I can't wait to talk to him tonight, I'm sure he is excited. He wanted this so badly. Another 30 days would have been tough. Oh well, we don't have to face that. I'm looking forward to my al-anon meeting tonight. Think I'll seek out a sponsor.

I'm borrowing some words again today:

Who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
Who told the ocean you can only come this far?
Who showed the moon where to hide til evening?
Whose words alone can catch a falling star?

The very same God that spins things in orbit,
He runs to the weary, the worn and the weak.
And the same gentle hands that hold me when I'm broken,
They conquered death to bring me victory.

Well, I know my Redeemer lives
I know my Redeemer lives.
All of creation testify this life within me cries,
I know my Redeemer lives.

He lives, to take away my shame.
And He lives, forever I'll proclaim that the payment for my sin
Was the precious life He gave
But now He's alive and there's an empty grave.
And I know my Redeemer lives.
Let all creation testify this life within me cries,
I know my Redeemer lives.

I realized this morning I haven't blogged for a week. I'm quite sure everybody is on the edge of their seats waiting for my next post!! HA! We've been playing the waiting game again. There is a paperwork problem (go figure!) and we are trying to figure out when Mikey will get out. It could be as early as May 8th or as long as another 30 days after that. Needless to say he has been crawling out of his skin. We still don't know but we should find out Wednesday. I am really hoping for the best for him but I have to admit, some fear is creeping in, no I would better describe it as some fear is stomping in. I found myself at an al-anon meeting last week and I will definitely be going back. I allowed God to take care of him when he left, I had no other choice. I have to continue doing that when he gets out. It's funny, we are both in the same boat. He has made GREAT progress but he has been in a situation that made it easy to make good choices. We both will be facing our own enemies when this situation changes; he, the temptation of his former lifestyle and me, the temptation to coddle and control. One day at a time, I guess that continues to be our motto. I'm looking forward to worshiping this morning and then after a few hours of work, I will head for the Stetler's for some smores with the family. Have a blessed day.

Beautiful Chaos and Disarray

The hair dryer is in the middle of my bedroom floor, a toy school bus is hiding behind the couch. Every bed is unmade and the laundry has piled up. I'm not sure what the crumbs are on the couch and the bird and cat have a strange, glazed over look on their faces. Yes, the grandkids were here all week-end and it was wonderful. The house may never be the same but the important part is, neither will I. I am not the same woman I was before these beautiful, giggling little people came into my life and stole my heart away. ( By the way, which one of you stole one of my tennis shoes, I still can't find it!!) Because of them I can have a beautiful week-end even if "the weather is confused" as Riley puts it. Thank God for your blessings tonight, I know I am.

Tanner Bryant

Tanner Bryant briefly touched our family's life but will always and forever be a part of us. God bless you little guy, we love you.

This evening I am trying to hear His voice among all the sadness.

In you, O Lord I have taken refuge;
let me never be put to shame.
Rescue me and deliver me in your
righteousness;
turn your ear to me and save me.
Be my rock of refuge,
to which I can always go;
give the command to save me,
for you are my rock and my
fortress.
For you have been my hope,
O Sovereign Lord,
my confidence since my youth.
From birth I have relied on you;
you brought me forth from my
mother's womb.
I will ever praise you.
Psalm 71

I have been reading about clefts. It is an indentation in a rock and inside the cleft the rock is its original pink color, unspoiled and protected from the storm and heat. That's where I want to stay. Fanny Crosby said it best:

A wonderful Savior is Jesus My Lord,
A wonderful Savior to me:
He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock,
Where rivers of pleasure I see.

He hideth my soul in the cleft of the rock
That shadows a dry, thirsty land;
He hideth my life in the depths of His love,
And covers me there with His hand.
And covers me there with His hand.

Lord please hide my family in the cleft of the rock tonight. Thank you that You have even the littlest ones in your hand.

I just had a really sad conversation with a neighbor. She was talking about how she doesn't like her daughter's boyfriend and she really would be just as happy if she never marries. She said she hopes she just lives with somebody and has children with him. When I asked her why, she said she doesn't know one happily married couple, not one. She said she hasn't been happy from the beginning and may leave him soon. I'm sure I could probably have this same conversation with many people. I just think it is so sad. I am so glad I am not in that situation. I told her that I honestly don't know what I would do without my husband and she looked at me and said she has no idea how that feels. Mike, I love you and I am so happy you are my husband and my very best friend.

Home Again

Well I made it back and survived another market. It went very well, some funny things to keep us sane. I think we pulled off keeping all the lines happy and the customers liked what they saw. I am really tired, probably more than ever. I chose not to take all my ingredients for my breakfast drink and that was a major mistake. Never again. It was really good to see both my kids yesterday. I am so proud of my children. No mother has been blessed with any better. Kerri is gone to Cincinnati with some friends and Eric has the boys visiting his parents. Looking forwawrd to seeing them tomorrow. I am trying to re-enter the real world and that partly involves resigning from my little job at Macy's. It is so cool to see how God prepares you for choices and changes He wants you to make or you just need to make. I know this is the next step I should make, I've just been waiting to know for sure. There is a mix up with Mikey's release date and our attorney is going to be working on that this week. It was so different to hear Mikey say that he was praying he could accept whatever the outcome is. The difference is an entire 30 days. That's big when you are where he is. it is wonderful to hear him talk about God's control in his life. He's come a long way!! Well, I'm going to try to get rested up and ready for a full week.

I just talked to my friend Maxine. Her son is out waiting his trial on May 24th. He is in Akron with his older brother that really seems to have his life together. My prayer is that Garland will gain some wisdom from his brother and no matter what happens in his trial he will determine to get his life straightened out and walk the journery in front of him with God. If Maxine and Garland comes to mind, breathe a little prayer.

Well, I'm packing again. I leave tomorrow evening for beautiful downtown Highpoint N.C. A very tiring week but one in which I get to see my husband in his working environment. I don't think I have ever been to a market that someone hasn't spoken of my husband's integrity. I know we shouldn't be prideful but nevertheless I am very proud of him in a world where that kind of integrity is not often seen.
I am finding myself telling God how much I am in love with him tonight. So many reasons. My grandkids were so full of life today and Ginger is feeling movement and life from the little one she is carrying. I pray that God will continue to breathe life into that womb. Life is all around us and He is right here among us touching our lives in so many ways. For some people in my life, things aren't so hopeful. Touch them tonight God, and may every doubt that you love them be destroyed as Your Spirit breathes new life into them.

A Miracle

We are praying for a miracle. My younger nephew and his wife have been struggling with having a baby. They miscarried and now the prognosis is that another little one will die within the next few weeks. We are praying for a miracle. I know God has the grace to see them through this but I also know He has the power to heal. I pray that God will be very near, that they will sense Him as they never have before.

Good to be Home

We made it back from sunny Florida. We had a great time - ate too much (gained weight), played lots of golf (learned how to hit my 7 wood, almost) swam a little, got a little tan and had a great trip with some wonderful friends. I couldn't wait to see my boys , that was the first thing on our "to do" list. It's really good to be home but unfortunately I will be leaving Sunday for the furniture market. Not as much fun but a necessity. Thanks to Chan for feeding the animals. Tyson hates it when we are gone.
On a more serious note I have to say I was moved by the passing of the Pope. He must have been a wonderful man of God who really lived what he preached. Heaven is far richer with him there.
I'm really tired so think I'll get some rest.

Leavin' on a jet plane. Back in a week. By-bye!!

Arise My Love

Not a word was heard from the tomb that day
Just the soldiers feet as they guarded the grave
One day, two days, three days had past
Could it be that Jesus had breathed His last
Coul it be that the Father had forsaken Him
Turned his back on his Son, despising our sin
All hell seemed to whisper, "Forget Him He's dead"
But the Father looked down on His son and said

Arise My Love, arise My Love
The grave no longer has a hold on You
No more death sting, no more suffering
Arise, arise My Love

The earth trembled and the tomb began to shake
and like lightning from heaven the stone was rolled away
And as dead men, the guards stood there in fright as the
Power of love displayed its might
When suddenly a melody filled the air
Riding wings of wind it was everywhere
The word all creation had been longing to hear
The sweet sound of victory so loud and clear

Sin...where are your shackles
Death...where is your sting
Hell had been defeated
The grave could not hold the King

Arise My Love, arise My Love
The grave no longer has a hold on You
No more death sting, no more suffering
Arise, arise My Love

A house full of people, nothing makes me happier. So tonight I am a very happy woman.To all my "family" here tonight - I love you all.

Tonight I am wondering how I can cry and whine about wanting my son home with me when all over the news is the heart wrenching story of a mom and dad fighting an uphill battle in the media and the courts of law all because they don't want to make their daughter starve to death. Something just isn't right with this picture. Mikey and I were talking about all the things wrong in the world he is in right now and in the world as a whole. "Thy kingdom come, thy will be done on earth as it is in heaven." May my life be, as much as possible, an example of His kingdom here on earth. I really need to do a much better job of that. Because of the truth of this holiday week-end, we have this hope. I'm so thankful He died and oh so thankful He lives. Prayers for a beautiful, hopeful Easter.

A very pleasant evening

We went with our friends that will be traveling to Florida with us and hit some balls. It could really be ugly for me. I decided I'm going to play with nothing but my 7 iron, my pitching wedge and my putter. I can't hit anything as well as my 7 so why keep trying. Then we had dinner and I came home and had a wonderful conversation with my son. He read me a poem they handed out in his S.A.P. meeting. He said it was like it was written just for him. It really helped me understand where he has been. It talked about the laughter and tears that were so much a part of his old lifestyle. It talked about because he is ready to change there is still hope for his future and how he wants to pursue his dreams that were there from childhood but got lost in the alcohol. He has looked around and seen people twice his age that don't think they can have any other kind of life and he is so grateful that he knows better and he has realized it as young as he has. God is really awesome!!!
The b-ball games start again tonight and we'll see who leaves Am. Idol. Should be fun.
Good-night.

Well I finished my Easter candy today. Actually my day was going along very nicely and then late this afternoon I found out my Riley was sick again. It's just so sad to see little ones sick. He's back on an anti-biotic and this time they will check him after 2 weeks to make sure it is completely cleared up. It has really been a bad winter for both boys. I really hope we can get them well and keep them well for Easter. Riley is really looking forward to an Easter egg hunt with Kenna, Cole, Michayla and Sara. (and of course baby Trey) Nothing makes a holiday special like lots of kids. Mike is home tonight, just in time for our weekly American Idol fix. Think I'll relax for the rest of the evening. Sleep tight little Riley and feel better. Nana loves you and my prayers are with you.

I just got through to my friend Maxine. I had been trying all week-end. I don't believe in coincidence. She has nobody to talk to and now she has me. I told her I don't have any answers but I can listen. She cried and told me she loves me. Wow!. We heard a sermon today about seeing things as God does, feeling as He does and moving into that situation to try to help. We sometimes get overwhelmed at the number of hurting people but we can look at them one at a time as God places them in our lives. Maxine has been placed in my life, I pray I don't let her down. She just needs someone to listen to her, I know how that feels.

I haven't had many blog thoughts on my mind lately. I kinda feel like I'm in a waiting mode. waiting for my trip to florida, waiting for the trip to market that I really have to get geared up for and waiting for my son to come home. We had a good visit with him yesterday. We took the little ones to see him. He hadn't really seen Trey walking he had just taken a few wobbly steps when Mikey left. He has cut his hair off and I don't think Trey recognized him but Riley picked up right where they had left off. He looks really good and much more relaxed. However it really made me miss him even more. This seems to be taking a toll on me lately. I'm not feeling like myself. Just a lot of different emotions knocking around inside of me. I'm looking forward to a busy week getting ready for Easter and vacation. Lots to do better get some rest.

You are my hiding place
You always fill my heart
With songs of deliverance
Whenever I am afraid
I will trust in You
I will trust in You
Let the weak say
I am strong
In the strength of the Lord
I will trust in You

Well, another interesting day. You just never know when you wake up in the morning what the day will bring. Kerri was on her way home from an errand with both boys and was involved in a car accident. Her van is probably totaled. Thank God nobody was hurt. I looked at my husband tonight and said, "We are really living life right now." You know some chapters you go through are quiet and almost unreal. But for a while now I have felt knee-deep in life. Nitty-gritty life. Down and dirty life. And that's when you most feel His presence, trust He's going through it with you and falling in love with Him more and more each day just because of the way He takes care of you and your loved ones. I praise God for this time, this night. My son is in re-hab, my grandsons are safe in their beds looking toward another day and my daughter is at home taking care of them. This day could have ended so differently. Thank you God.

Well, Mike and I just returned from Lancaster. We packed Pup's clothes and a few belongings and delivered them. We really didn't think we would be able to see him but surprise - a human being was in charge and said he would be glad to let us see him for a few minutes. What a difference. He must feel like he has died and gone to heaven. He paged him three times before he responded. He had been reading and fell asleep. He really looked tired but I think he is already relaxing and he will probably sleep very well for the next few nights to catch up. Now his work begins. I think he is ready. We are very relieved. I'm looking forward to a day with my boys and Kerri tomorrow. Just getting out and hanging at Mickey D's for a little inside play time. Hope warm weather isn't too far away.
Mikey's new address is below:
CTC
151 E. Hubert Ave
Lancaster, OH 43130

Make sure you address it to Gary, not Mike.

After a very long and disappointing day, we finally have some answers. Someone dropped the ball and didn't get the paperwork into the proper hands for Mikey to be moved to re-hab today. Needless to say this was very upsetting. He had been so anxious he couldn't sleep and he had been packed and ready since 6a.m. It broke my heart to have to tell him it wasn't going to happen today. I just spoke with his attorney and he had in hand the order from the court for his transfer tomorrow. I guess I have learned that when you are dealing with the legal system you can't take anything for granted. They are to pick him up by 9 a.m. tomorrow. Hopefully all will go well.

Go Bucks

I was reading all the articles about the fantastic win for the Buckeye basketball team yesterday. WOW! I haven't had that much fun in a long time. (I'm an avid fan) But while I was reading I stumbled on something I thought was humorous. Under "You Tell Us" the question was as follows:

Now that Iraq has become a democracy, who should join North Korea and Iran in the axis of evil?
a.Syria
b.Cuba
c.France
d.Michigan

I don't know, just gave me a grin to start the week. That approach tends to keep things in perspective for me. Happy Monday! (This is Super Monday for our family!!)

We've almost made it; that first 30 days. Would I want to do it again? NO! But we not only have gotten through it , we have triumphed. I can't go into all that that means but I can say we have seen God's hand. The following really describes how I have felt and what I have experienced.

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me

There is no life - no life without its hunger
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly
But when You come and I am filled with wonder
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
And I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up...to more than I can be.

Not my own strength, but His strength in me.

I just called my new friend Maxine, the woman I met at the jail. We had a really good talk but more than that I got to pray with her. I think she really appreciated it but I can't even put into words what it meant to me. She works two jobs, in-care of an elderly person during the week and as an orthopedic tech at a hospital on Saturday and Sunday. I want so much for her and her son to see God in all of this and I'm praying for miracles in their lives. I have been blessed this morning.I'm going to go see my little ones today and take their Daddy a birthday present. Happy Birthday Eric. Tonight we are going out with a couple that Mike met at his small group. He has really been there for Mikey and I am really anxious to meet him. Thank God for all the different people He brings to our lives.

Spring is just around the corner!

Tyson(my cat) is very excited this morning. We have a new addition to the Pressley household. He let me know by standing at the front door and making his "let me at 'em" noise. Sure enough, I looked out the window and there right before my eyes was a new bird family moving in to the bird house on our porch. We're starting to get spring fever.

I just returned from visiting my son. As I sat across the window I couldn't help noticing a woman that was obviously in so much pain. I recognized that pain and instantly related to it. Sure enough she was visiting her 19 yr. old son and pouring her heart out trying to get him to see that she loved him enough to tell him some things he maybe didn't want to hear. I saw myself in her. As we left, tears were streaming down her face. I reached over and patted her as we were going down on the elevator. I heard myself ask for her sons name so I could pray and her face lit up. She is a single Mom who lost her younger son, he was bludgeoned to death. She kept saying "I'm all alone but I won't turn my back on him. Her name is Maxine and her son's name is Garland. I promised her I would pray and call her. I hope anyone else reading this will breathe their names in prayer when you think of them. There is so much pain and heartache and I have been so sheltered from this all my life. I don't consider that lucky. We walked in and one of the prisoners didn't have a way home. They are not allowed to walk off the premises, they must have a ride. You've got to understand, everytime I have been there someone is looking for a ride. When we left he was still sitting there. My husband gave him a 20 dollar bill for a taxi and you would have thought he had received a million dollars. I got in a warm car, came home, put on clean pajamas, got a cookie out of the pantry and started my fireplace. I pray that I will continue to learn what it means to be blessed to be a blessing. I don't do a very good job. Don't forget Maxine and Garland, I pray I won't.

Thank you Riley for the fun date yesterday. Watching you and listening to you giggle at Winnie the Pooh's Heffalump was wumberful!! It turned a "yucky day outside" into a perfect day. I hope you are feeling better today. You are sooooooooooo special.
Love,
Nana

Another weekend comes to a close. We had a good one. Had some good friends over Friday night just to hang out. Saturday I got to hang out with two of my favorite guys, Riley and Trey while Mommy and Papa went to visit Mikey. My Mom and Dad came over to catch a glimpse of the little ones. Papa taught Trey how to open the bird cage and try to catch the bird. Not a good thing!! Then Mike and I had a date night with Meet the Fockers and some refreshment at Max and Erma's. Sunday brought wonderful worship and a great sermon. A new small group is starting in Gahanna, will probably check it out, think I might be ready. Eric and Chan came over and we caught up, made some plans for our family night and Easter etc. I am so looking forward to March 7th. Won't be long now til Mikey will be moving to re-hab. I am very proud of my son; the way he has faced his punishment and the progress he is making. Looks like it could be a wintry week ahead. Hope spring is just around the corner. A month til we leave for Florida. Lots to look forward to. God is so good to us. Today at church I was somewhat overwhelmed with love for Him and His love for all of us. May that always be so in my life.

We talked to Mikey last night and he said that things have not been quite as cool in his cell lately. He really can't talk about it much on the phone but needless to say I'm a little nervous. Just calling for all prayers. He gets out a week from Monday. Continue to pray for his protection.

Investments

That's what I heard in the sermon at church Sunday. I have tried to invest myself in people all my life. I'm sure there have been times that I fell very short, but I've tried. I love people and I love my family. At this time in my life one of the things I believe I should really invest in is my family. You can live in the same town and life goes by and you don't even see them for far too long. Sooo,
the matriarch of this family (me!, self-proclaimed) has declared a once-a-month family night. It will be quite a group; the Wolfe's, Pressley's, Stetler's, Line's and of course the newest additions, Jen and Ken, Cindy and Sarah. Should be fun;poker, Balderdash, May I, food, food, food and cook-outs and basketball when this weather breaks. Sounds like some Kodak moments to me and a new scrapbook to begin. I remember fondly the times that Kerri, Mikey, Eric and Ryan had together. I want those kind of memories for this generation. Traditions, that's what I want them to remember. Our first family night will be quite a celebration. We will celebrate three birthdays in one Doc-Doc, Eric William and Jen. Can't wait!!!

PTL

I just really need to take a minute and thank God for the way He is carrying our family right now. I was talking to a friend today and she said she could tell that I was doing well. I told her it was only through the strength that God was giving me. I really didn't think I would be able to carry on with much of a normal life during these 30 days. I know myself and often during high stress I just shut down. So it is not my own strength but His that is allowing me to enjoy my grandkids, shop, clean house etc., etc., etc. I don't find myself in old-fashion testimony meetings anymore but I think God still likes to hear us share what He is doing in our lives. So today I am going on record to say that I love Him more today than yesterday for His faithfulness, mercy and grace. His blessings are new every morning.

I miss my son !! Love and prayers go out to you tonight Pup.

Good Times

What a great start to my week-end. Dinner Thursday night with my all time best friend lunch (including Godiva cheesecake) with another good friend on Friday and then a cheap movie (Shall We Dance?) with my all time best buddy - my daughter. I am truly blessed. I really think dance lessons are exactly what our marriage needs to put a little pizzaz into it. However I will never look like j.lo and Mike I love ya but you'll never be Richard Gere. But that's really o.k. I wouldn't trade places.
As of tomorrow Mikey is half way through his time in jail. God is still taking such good care of him. Thanks for all the prayers. He had a rough day today but he's fine. I will just be so glad when he can move on to re-hab.
Time to hit the sack. This old lady can only take so much fun.
P.S. I highly recommend the movie especially if you're looking for a "feel good". It's really good, it will make you smile. And we all need to do more of that.
Good night.

Well, we are into the second week of Mikey's incarceration and it is so good to see how God is taking care of him. When we hear about things happening in other cells we realize that prayers were answered by placing him in the dorm he is in. He has had no days of fear and for that I am so grateful. He calls often and he sounds really good. He loves getting mail and he appreciates finally having a bed. Mike is at market and I am here holding things together like getting the gutter fixed that is falling off the house. We've lived here long enough for things to start wearing out. I have made sure to plan things to look forward to this week because I still get along best by keeping busy. But God is so good. Because of Him I can experience joy even during times of my life that joy doesn't seem to make sense. His love for me is totally overwhelming so on that note - good-night and God bless.

Mikey finally got a bed yesterday. He said it helps his back slightly. I'm just glad he's off the floor.

Too sweet for words!!!

O.K. I was the world's worst Nana today. I stopped by Kerri's to pick up something she had borrowed and Riley presented me with the most beautiful handmade valentine a child has ever made!! He was so proud. After eating some lunch, watching Trey act like a clown in his high chair and giving Riley several smooches I decided it was time to head home. Riley went dowstairs to watch Bear and I went home WITHOUT my valentine. He then, upon hearing how upset I was from his Mommy, called me to tell me all about the valentine I had forgotten, he would bring it to my house tomorrow and "I love you so much Nana". No Riley, I love you more than words can say. You are so sweet it hurts. Sorry if this is too mushy for some but it is Valentine's Day afterall and I am a nana. I can be as mushy as I want!!!

What an experience

I just returned from visiting my son in jail. WOW that's all I can say. What an eye-opening experience. But I looked right in his eyes and the light is still there. I can't explain how much I love him. He is simply counting the minutes til he can move to re-hab. He is growing up by the minute. I would say more but it's really hard to put my feelings down on paper. I miss him so much and the last couple of days I have realized that the only way I'm going to get through is to stay extremely busy. Thank God for my job. I wasn't scheduled today but they let me go in for a few hours. I'm really tired, think I'll hit the sack.

Love Goes On

A shooting star tumbles down, its flame cannot endure
A scarlet rose withers brown, to lose its fragrant lure
The moon illuminates the night, to vanish at the dawn
But love, love goes on.
Fortunes fail and disappear, like castles in the sand
Power spoils and causes fear, but yields to stronger hands
Fame lasts for a moment, then in a moment it is gone
But love, love goes on
Beauty fades, passion wanes and faces show their years
Death steals a lover's touch away but time dries up the tears
Tunes are soon forgotten and singers lose their song
But love, love goes on
A baby boy, a starlit night, kings on bended knee
Healing hands giving sight then tortured on a tree
A woman sings, rejoicing "He is risen, He is gone"
Because love, love goes on

Mikey's Address

I just thought I would post the address where Mikey can receive mail. Please use his real first name when addressing.

Gary Pressley
2460 Jackson Pike
Columbus Ohio 43223

We have talked to him often and he is doing fine. He still has his great sense of humor and a really good attitude. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers.

The day after

I feel like I need a t-shirt that says I survived Friday, Feb. 4th. Delivering your son to jail and then coming home and getting a stomach flu rates right up there with one of the all time suckiest days you can have. I wouldn't wish what I went through with my son on anybody. I left him sitting in a dirty waiting room with a bunch of strangers, his new underwear and his Bible on his lap and looking very anxious. When I walked out, I couldn't look back. But we have talked to him three times and he is doing o.k. It is definitely making him pay his dues. Amazingly enough he still has his sense of humor. He is a great kid, quickly turning into an even greater young man. I appreciate everybody's prayers and would ask that you continue. We can't get by without them. I am feeling better (just a 24 hr. thing) and I'm going to meet Kerri at the mall. Just can't sit around here all day. My wonderful daughter stopped by last night with popsicles and flowers. What a sweetie.

Things I know

Things I know:
This road wasn't God's choice for Mikey but He did know it was the one he would take
God prepared this road ahead of time
We have prayed for Mikey for 22 years and this (even though painful) is God's answer to our prayers because this is taking Mikey to where God wants him to be
God has and will continue to watch over him and protect him
God is in control
I love my son more than life itself
God loves him more

What more do I need to know? Now I just have to rest in these truths. One day at a time.

Wednesday morning and I am struggling. Part of me wants time to stand still so we don't have to go forward and part of me just wants to get on with it. I feel very weak this morning but I know that won't last. I know where my strength is. Think I'll go see two beautiful gifts from God today in the form of Riley and Trey. I am so blessed to have them close they always fill me up with so much of what I need.

Higher than my ways

I haven't blogged for a while because I just can't seem to get my thoughts together. So today I will borrow some thoughts.

You said that nothing could tear us apart
Your ways are higher than my ways
You said forever and that's who You are
Your ways are higher than my ways
You make the sun and the rain to fall
You take me through it all

I can't see over the mountain
Your ways are higher than my ways
I can't see myself around it
Your ways are higher than my ways

So many times I want to give up
Your ways are higher than my ways
And you remind me of your unfailing love
Your ways are higher than my ways

I can't see myself around it these days but may I never forget that His ways are higher than my ways!!

Doin' Fine

Yes, we are all doin' fine. I am finally starting to feel "normal" again. Finishing the anti-biotic has helped with that. Time is marching on. My Dad seems to be struggling more and more mentally, the day Mikey will have to leave is getting closer and closer, Eric and Chan will be moving to their apartment this week-end and I will start back to work next week. Time just keeps moving. I was able to get my husband to slow down this week-end and I think it helped. He can fall into his work-a-holic mode so quickly if I'm not careful. I was able to get back to church yesterday and boy did that feel good. We went to Kerri's for lunch after and soaked up the grandkids. It was a really good day. Thanks to everybody for all your prayers lately. I read a lot of your blogs and know that I pray for a lot of you often. Some of you I've never met but I feel as if I know you. Guess that's all for today. Have a good one.

Sorry for two posts in one day but I just wanted to share these words with you.

O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
Vast, unmeasured, boundles, free!
Rolling as a mighty ocean in its fullness over me!
Underneath me, all around me, is the current of Thy love
Leading onward, leading homeward to
Thy glorious rest above!

O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
Spread His praise from shore to shore!How He loveth, ever loveth, changeth
never, nevermore!
How He watches o'er His loved ones,
died to call them all His own
How for them He intercedeth, watcheth
o'er them from the throne!

O the deep, deep love of Jesus,
'Tis a heav'n of heav'ns to me
And it lifts me up to glory, for it lifts me up to Thee!

Words and music by Samuel Francis and Thomas Williams

Shock and Awe

I know I shouldn't be but I am. I am standing back and watching God's magnificent grace lift my son to someplace I don't think he has been before. Has anyone ever asked you to think back on a time when God's grace was so real in your life there was no denying it? I am sure this will be one of his times that he will be able to point to. We are always in need of God but sometimes we are more keenly aware of that need than others. It seems everybody close to me right now is very aware of that need and we are becoming increasingly more aware of God's hand at work. It looks like Eric and Chan have found an apartment and she has an interview Thursday. The kids continue to come home smiling and I can honestly say my son seems more happy and content than I can remember. (Thanks to my nephew for being there for him) I have really been lazy today. I know I' m not 100% yet because I'm not too antsy about staying in. I will really be glad when I feel like myself again. The babies have remained fairly healthy for awhile(knock on wood) and my beautiful daughter is her beautiful self. She has become such a constant in my life I don't know what I would do without her. I love you Kerri!!

I'm Back

Well, here I am. Last night about 3:30 I wasn't too sure I would be. I had a pretty rough night in the hospital. ( oh yea, pneumonia!!) Pray for my roommate, Betty. A sweet little lady who's favorite word is "shit". She's so sad and confused and not at all in the right place. She get's plenty of "Honey's" and "can't you eat a little?" But not what she realy needs. I'm not quite sure what hit me or why but I know I don't want to go through that again. Once again, what would I do without family. The best medicine I received were the little ones and my babies coming to see me. The support of my mom and my daughter as we listened for the news from Mike about Mikey. Of course my husband, words don't even work there. Then Eric and Chan doing more than just keeping things together. My house is cleaner than when I left. I am so blessed. I got home tonight to a little redhead jumping up and down at the door pleading for Uncle Mike to carry up the giat Gardfield Mikey gave her. I took a shower, climbed into a warm bed and listened as each member of my family returned home. The kids love school. Eric and Mikey returned from a business trip and the laughter was so comforting.

Mikey goes to jail in a month for 30 days and then to in-house re-hab for 90 days. Last night I was quite sure I didn't have the strength to face it. I wish you could all see his attitude. If I try to describe it you will think I am exagerrating or seeing what I want to see. Trust me I'm not, I'm gaining strength from him. Right now he is downstairs helping his cousin with her homework. I'll pause here just for a moment so that picture can fully come up on your screen. He told me today that his best friend, Joel, had called and he told him the court said he could take one friend to jail with him and he had been picked. You really have to know Mikey to understand, he isn't making light of his situation, it's just how he copes. Frankly I wish I had a few more of those coping skills. We have a long road ahead of us but I feel like he has turned a corner. A more positive attitude on his part would be impossible and a bigger God on our side would be far more impossible.
Thanks for all your prayers . I'm going to take it easy for a while so my blogs may come a little more frequent than any of you would like. Feel free to not read them all!!