I have been dealing with some strange feelings, or maybe it's more like lack of feelings. I have felt somewhat numb and detached. I have no idea why, and I have decided to stop trying to figure out why. It is what it is and I will get through it. However nothing makes me feel like myself like being around my children and grandchildren. Kerri and the boys came over to spend that night last night and Nanna took them to Toys R Us for some new purchases. Nicole, Mikey and Austin joined us for dinner tonight. The simple things, the important things. There is nothing like the smiles and "thank-yous" from little ones that think you hung the moon. They are able to put a smile on my face like no one else. I thank God everyday for my beautiful family.