I have so many emotions tonight. I really don't think I can possibly describe all that I feel. It involves so many different happenings and circumstances that really don't even relate to each other. My husband is gone to market and that always brings out emotions in me. My son is leaving tomorrow to join him for his first market since he began to work with Mike again. I watched the festivities of the inauguration all day and experienced a lot of different feelings. I held Austin while I watched history unfold and I found myself wondering what the future would hold as he grows up. I told him as we watched, that God is in control of the future no matter who the president is. My thoughts and prayers turn so often to the little girl we are so anxious to welcome into our family and wonder when that will happen. I worry about her but I know God is watching over her. So tonight my head and my heart is full. I'm trying to quiet myself.

God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near, calm my fear
And take my doubt

Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in

I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can't climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You

God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all I bring
Is all of me

Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now